I'm not happy
As the subject states, I'm not happy. I haven't been for -- I don't know, a year? Maybe more? I'm not sure who I am anymore or where I'm going, when years ago I felt so certain. I was Kristen Marchetti, goddammit.
Adult life really fucking sucks. I'm just gonna say it.
I hate my job and I'm really growing to hate my surroundings. My original plan was to take a year off from school (note: I can't believe that I thought working full time would be a "year off") and then go back in the fall and start work on my PhD. Right now, I can tell you that it's just not going to happen. I feel like academia's forsaken me. Here I give it the best years of my life and this is how it repays me - 9 bucks an hour and no benefits? Oh no no no.
FUCK. THAT.
So now I'm waiting for a new plan to form, but I have no idea what it could be. How do I know I won't get hurt again? How can you figure out the things you want when the options seem so limited?
I just need a change.
Hope.
Health Insurance.
Obama, I'm waiting.
Adult life really fucking sucks. I'm just gonna say it.
I hate my job and I'm really growing to hate my surroundings. My original plan was to take a year off from school (note: I can't believe that I thought working full time would be a "year off") and then go back in the fall and start work on my PhD. Right now, I can tell you that it's just not going to happen. I feel like academia's forsaken me. Here I give it the best years of my life and this is how it repays me - 9 bucks an hour and no benefits? Oh no no no.
FUCK. THAT.
So now I'm waiting for a new plan to form, but I have no idea what it could be. How do I know I won't get hurt again? How can you figure out the things you want when the options seem so limited?
I just need a change.
Hope.
Health Insurance.
Obama, I'm waiting.