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Well im back and im still alive...just! It been a awsome four days, i've spent time with old friends and made some new ones , I've drank wayy too much and not eaten enough and I've learnt that theres soo much out there that needs to be explored. Scarborough is just only teeny tiny place on the map and I really wanna get away from it theres so much more to see and soooo mant more people to meet and become apart of my life yet.
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I fell for him again..he owed me some money and i went round to his to get it before I went to teeside on Wednesday we got chatting and he was telling me how much he missed me and he didnt know if he'd made the wrong choice, one thing led to another and well...u know! The thing is afterwards i was thinking fuck it, hes older than me but we do get on, screw wat other people think and i was actually thinking he was maybe gunna change his mind and come back to me and ask if i wanted to be with him..and for a moment i thought i'd actually say yes if he asked. I put it to the back of my mind over the weekend but when i thought properly about it i realised what i am to him...a booty call. Hes got the best of both worlds. Hes got a partner who loves him but then he's got the young blood (me) who he knows he just has to ring and il be there for wenever he wants abit of sexyy time! Well not anymore..hes messing with me and theres no way i cud just be his booty call from now on because to me it's not just that..i have feelings for him and i cant be expected to get over him if im still getting under him :P.
Soo if he texts me and gunna tell him exactly wat i think and tell him to swivvle thinking he can play me and have her at the same time. I'M DONE be used. Time to find me someone who genually cares about me.