i really am torn

[fcscott7]

Jeez.

i really do not want this girl in my life. on the other hand i really do.
i really will never ever be with her again.
i really do just want to be friends.
i really know that isnt something easy to do.
i really wish my friends would not hang out with her.
i really wish she wouldnt tell my friends to hang out with her.
i really recognize our connection, but thats not enough.
i really am not forgiving.
i really hate this situation.
i really hate feeling obligation.
i really just need like a year off.
i really just need someone new in my life.

Jeez.