May 23, 2008 17:46
I'm sorry I haven't kept in touch... Things have been... interesting.
I'm unbelievably thrilled with all the changes that are about to happen. Beautiful, rough, wondrous, crazy changes. Life will pull you exactly in the direction it sees fit, and I'd like to think the Universe only has good intentions for us. So heres to hoping that all these glorious changes will be simply for the better, or I could be presumptuous enough to say "best."
I've been so full of energy and life that the crap I am in this position to tolerate becomes bearable. Fairly soon I see complete freedom on the horizon. A new life, meeting new people, experiencing amazing things. In general I'm just so positive that this is the best decision I've made in a while, perhaps my whole life. Doubts have yet to even slip in, and I've noticed I have also stopped doubting myself. I trust that God and the Universe, or whatever.... has just opened up a door for me, luring me into a blissful and magnificent garden of life and happiness. I sounds like a nut, but I really don't even care anymore.
On top of this... oh love, oh love... how I'm finally experiencing you and truly enjoying you for all you are. You do exist, in your most unconditional and pleasing form. There is hope, yet.