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So I've been stuck with Jake and his familia ever since Sunday night. The car trip to MI was slight hell due to my small ass bladder and horribly paved roads. It's slightly cold up here, staying in the low 40's and high 30's. No snow.. yet. I think this trip had done me some good so far. I've been a slight bitch lately, very moody and not touchy at all. But being stuck in a car for over 12 hours with Jake and then meeting his family.. I've just calmed down a lot. I've gotten cuddly again and have started to feel the same as I did when he and I started dating. I love him so much. What's bothered me lately is that everyone is saying he's pussy whipped since we're always together and he actually pays me attention. I don't see that as being pussy whipped. We're in a good relationship and if he ever wanted to go and hang out with his friends or if I wanted to go and do the same, we could, without each other. It's just that when he makes plans with his friends he tells me that I'm invited too.
I've looked back and read some of this thing, at how upset I got because certain people that were my friends in high school won't take the time to call me or hang out with me anymore.. and that's just silly. Why get that upset because someone who you hardly ever see doesn't care anymore? I know with some people part of it was my fault. I was too concerned about Lee after I found out he cheated on me to notice that I was losing my friends. I felt as if I had to be around him 24/7 to make sure he wasn't sticking his dick into some cheap trick since he obviously couldn't stop himself.That was my fault, all of it. After we broke up the first time I should have stayed away and should have kept my friends, since I actually had some then and went out and did shit with them. I'm still kind of like that today, but mainly because I'm busy with work and school and my schedule usually doesn't match other peoples. When I get back home I'm calling Mickie,Rosa, Emily, and Rachel. I needs to hang out with them. Anyways, back on track. Those people that I was so upset about... I just don't really care anymore. It seems to be the norm with them anyways. I'll talk and see them if they call or something.. but I'm not trying anymore. I've stopped calling and leaving messages. If they need me, they can call.
I've been looking back at high school and have realized that I missed out on a lot of shit. I never went to parties (even back in columbia I only went to one) or dated a lot. I just sat around at home. My fun times were my sophomore and junior years. When i went out and did shit with Derrick, Emily, Carrie, April, Morgane, Rachel, and some other people. That was so much fun and I really miss it. Oh well. I know i've talked about that before too. I just do a lot of thinking.
I'm happy with my life right now though. I just need to see my friends more. All I do is work, school, and hang out with Jake and his friends. I need more me time to hang out with my friends and do shit, such as clean my room and work out.
I've looked back and read some of this thing, at how upset I got because certain people that were my friends in high school won't take the time to call me or hang out with me anymore.. and that's just silly. Why get that upset because someone who you hardly ever see doesn't care anymore? I know with some people part of it was my fault. I was too concerned about Lee after I found out he cheated on me to notice that I was losing my friends. I felt as if I had to be around him 24/7 to make sure he wasn't sticking his dick into some cheap trick since he obviously couldn't stop himself.That was my fault, all of it. After we broke up the first time I should have stayed away and should have kept my friends, since I actually had some then and went out and did shit with them. I'm still kind of like that today, but mainly because I'm busy with work and school and my schedule usually doesn't match other peoples. When I get back home I'm calling Mickie,Rosa, Emily, and Rachel. I needs to hang out with them. Anyways, back on track. Those people that I was so upset about... I just don't really care anymore. It seems to be the norm with them anyways. I'll talk and see them if they call or something.. but I'm not trying anymore. I've stopped calling and leaving messages. If they need me, they can call.
I've been looking back at high school and have realized that I missed out on a lot of shit. I never went to parties (even back in columbia I only went to one) or dated a lot. I just sat around at home. My fun times were my sophomore and junior years. When i went out and did shit with Derrick, Emily, Carrie, April, Morgane, Rachel, and some other people. That was so much fun and I really miss it. Oh well. I know i've talked about that before too. I just do a lot of thinking.
I'm happy with my life right now though. I just need to see my friends more. All I do is work, school, and hang out with Jake and his friends. I need more me time to hang out with my friends and do shit, such as clean my room and work out.