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wow it's been super long since I wrote an LJ. Myspace is way more fun. I know. I hurt LJ's feelings... but those aren't the only ppl who have hurt feelings right now.
I learned some interesting things about someone who used to be my friend today. And some of it I was already thinking. But now I know this person is officially nuts. But ya know what, the thing that I learned today doesn't even effect me really, it's the nuts part that does. Sure sure, I'll get over it. Come June I'll be home and moving on with my life, with the people that matter. People who actually care have made efforts in their own right to stay close with me... it wasn't me chasing after their friendship... we were equal. Thank god for those people. And come June I won't feel bad about leaving because there's nothing here for me then. Nikki will be where I am and I will be where Ryan is and all my friends at home. That's all I need. And I'm glad Nikki and I have gotten closer. It means that my only friend here will also be one of my many friends at home. And I'll have my parents and kitties and everything will be ok.
It's a lot to say that someone should continue to try to make things work if they care... but at what point do people realize that it's stupid because the person they are trying for will never reciprocate unless they have a problem or no one else is there. And why is no one else there? Ask this person, not me. I wasn't the one who hibernated this winter. I should have seen this more than a year ago when I was officially "replaced." this is the last I speak of this situation because I am now letting go. this is me letting go of it...
your loss.
on a lighter note, tomorrow hopefully weather permits me to travel home for spring break. I can't wait!
I learned some interesting things about someone who used to be my friend today. And some of it I was already thinking. But now I know this person is officially nuts. But ya know what, the thing that I learned today doesn't even effect me really, it's the nuts part that does. Sure sure, I'll get over it. Come June I'll be home and moving on with my life, with the people that matter. People who actually care have made efforts in their own right to stay close with me... it wasn't me chasing after their friendship... we were equal. Thank god for those people. And come June I won't feel bad about leaving because there's nothing here for me then. Nikki will be where I am and I will be where Ryan is and all my friends at home. That's all I need. And I'm glad Nikki and I have gotten closer. It means that my only friend here will also be one of my many friends at home. And I'll have my parents and kitties and everything will be ok.
It's a lot to say that someone should continue to try to make things work if they care... but at what point do people realize that it's stupid because the person they are trying for will never reciprocate unless they have a problem or no one else is there. And why is no one else there? Ask this person, not me. I wasn't the one who hibernated this winter. I should have seen this more than a year ago when I was officially "replaced." this is the last I speak of this situation because I am now letting go. this is me letting go of it...
your loss.
on a lighter note, tomorrow hopefully weather permits me to travel home for spring break. I can't wait!