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Its been a long time since I've updated. I seem to like my blog on myspace a bit more these days. Oh well.
Lots has been happening i suppose. personally anyways.
I think I mentioned before that I am dropping out of the teaching program and I no longer find it what I want to be. I don't know what I'm going to do with a degree in history and geography... but something. I just don't want to teach. So I'm graduating in May... which I need to make sure of. I need to resign my majors for reg. bach degrees and drop my edu classes today. I got an hour to get ready before I meet teacher number 1. Now, the only class I have it on wed. nights 6:30-9:30 and I don't even meet for that til Nov 11th. I should start my paper soon though.
I've not been to BDubs in 2 weeks and this week will make it a 3rd. This I am very upset about... but I can't help it this time. 2 weeks ago, I could have gone. Last week I got sick, like bad. I've been very dizzy and I didn't think being in a bar and drinking would help that situation. I went home on thursday night so I could go to the doctors on friday morning. He said nothing. No clue. But he prescribed a MRI... which scared me because that means he wants to make sure that I don't have a brain tumor. A frickin' brain tumor. I hope not. So my appointment is on wednesday, at home. Ugh. I hope that it's something fixable without shaving off all my hair.
So being that it's halloween and that I haven't gone out in say 2 1/2 weeks... Jenny and I decided that it's time. I think I have some semblence of a costume so that works... I need to find Jenny one. Nikki I think is joining us and Brandon and Kyle also.
Speaking of Brandon, poor guy. He went to the shelter and got the cutest cat ever, Mr. Bojangles. Every one of his roomies love it, except for one. This Trevor dude sucks ass. He told him that he'd tell Deerfield on him if he didn't get rid of it. So I took it. I thought just for awhile, but now I want to keep it forever... I feel awful for Brandon because he's very upset about it. I want to keep Mr. Bojo until he can have him back, or at least forever... then he can visit him whenever he wants. I'm pretty sure Myles is pissed. He didnt sleep with me last night, which he always does... but Mr. Bojo did. They play around but I really think Myles feels invaded. He will get used to it.
I know I just saw Ryan on thursday and friday... but I seriously miss him so much. This is what I think... and I know I'm not the only one who thinks this. People don't understand how someone can fall in love with someone in a day or a week or a few months... they don't see how it's possible. They permit it in movies because it's a movie. But when they find that one person... they see how it's possible because it happens to them. They now know what it's like. I think revelations occur when one finds the person they're meant to be with. They realize that many times perhaps or none at all they thought they were in love but were not once they really find out what true love feels like. So this is the way I see it, for it's happened to me. I can't see myself without him EVER. I think I'm lucky. I wish more people would find this. Maybe everyone would be a lot happier.
I guess I should go shower and whatnot. I have a headache. boo.
oh and p.s. Into the West is about the best 6 hours of TV I've ever watched, and I'm excited to recieve the last 4 episodes in the mail soon.
Lots has been happening i suppose. personally anyways.
I think I mentioned before that I am dropping out of the teaching program and I no longer find it what I want to be. I don't know what I'm going to do with a degree in history and geography... but something. I just don't want to teach. So I'm graduating in May... which I need to make sure of. I need to resign my majors for reg. bach degrees and drop my edu classes today. I got an hour to get ready before I meet teacher number 1. Now, the only class I have it on wed. nights 6:30-9:30 and I don't even meet for that til Nov 11th. I should start my paper soon though.
I've not been to BDubs in 2 weeks and this week will make it a 3rd. This I am very upset about... but I can't help it this time. 2 weeks ago, I could have gone. Last week I got sick, like bad. I've been very dizzy and I didn't think being in a bar and drinking would help that situation. I went home on thursday night so I could go to the doctors on friday morning. He said nothing. No clue. But he prescribed a MRI... which scared me because that means he wants to make sure that I don't have a brain tumor. A frickin' brain tumor. I hope not. So my appointment is on wednesday, at home. Ugh. I hope that it's something fixable without shaving off all my hair.
So being that it's halloween and that I haven't gone out in say 2 1/2 weeks... Jenny and I decided that it's time. I think I have some semblence of a costume so that works... I need to find Jenny one. Nikki I think is joining us and Brandon and Kyle also.
Speaking of Brandon, poor guy. He went to the shelter and got the cutest cat ever, Mr. Bojangles. Every one of his roomies love it, except for one. This Trevor dude sucks ass. He told him that he'd tell Deerfield on him if he didn't get rid of it. So I took it. I thought just for awhile, but now I want to keep it forever... I feel awful for Brandon because he's very upset about it. I want to keep Mr. Bojo until he can have him back, or at least forever... then he can visit him whenever he wants. I'm pretty sure Myles is pissed. He didnt sleep with me last night, which he always does... but Mr. Bojo did. They play around but I really think Myles feels invaded. He will get used to it.
I know I just saw Ryan on thursday and friday... but I seriously miss him so much. This is what I think... and I know I'm not the only one who thinks this. People don't understand how someone can fall in love with someone in a day or a week or a few months... they don't see how it's possible. They permit it in movies because it's a movie. But when they find that one person... they see how it's possible because it happens to them. They now know what it's like. I think revelations occur when one finds the person they're meant to be with. They realize that many times perhaps or none at all they thought they were in love but were not once they really find out what true love feels like. So this is the way I see it, for it's happened to me. I can't see myself without him EVER. I think I'm lucky. I wish more people would find this. Maybe everyone would be a lot happier.
I guess I should go shower and whatnot. I have a headache. boo.
oh and p.s. Into the West is about the best 6 hours of TV I've ever watched, and I'm excited to recieve the last 4 episodes in the mail soon.