Let It Go
Coping with the aging process is something I had not carely considered when I was young and vital, capable, full of promise to myselfe and to others, actually, I was pretty “full of myselfe” when I was young. I had a father who loved me beyond himself, I was not spoiled, but I knew I was special; he gave to me more love than one person probably deserves in a lifetime. I was your typical tom boy girl; climbing trees, riding horseback, playing softball, baseball, ice skating, gym, everything that seemed to come along, I tried or played it. Still did up until just a few months ago, and suddenly, I can no longer be that all around one to whom my Dad used to say “hop to it and get a red nose”. I did that a lot, it is still good for me to think it, and some things I truly believe I can still “hop to it and get a red nose”. That will be a few more days or weeks no doubt as I just retuned from a few days stay in the hospital, am doing better every day.
Strange what life can hand you when you are trying so hard to conquer, not divide, just conquer; it did not work, I cannot convince this body it can do and be what it was just a few short months ago. So it is now adjust, adjust, adjust. It always seemed I did not want to go gracefully into that good night, but maybe I should change my mind and try being gracefull about it, after all, no one wants to be complaining and grouching all the time when I have had my day in the sun, it is time for the youngsters to take over and see what they do with all of the wonderful inventions that have come their way in the many
years I have been around. More than there is room in this space to enumberate.
So: I am going to take the advice of a magazine I just noted this little blurb; it suggested
‘let go of something’. I think I already told you I was letting go of a person who others have said I should have let go years before so I have already done that, the remarkable part of the blurb was if someone asked their situation (as the one you are in, or have been in) what would you tell them? And I would say, let go, it is going no where you want to be and you haven’t ten years to try and finish the cultivation. Or if I did, do I really want to? And I can answer my own question, very simply: no.