i doth protest
this is by far the hardest thing i have ever done. i can't breath half the time and the other time i can't see. i am a big weeping sobbing mess. i wish i could be angry but i can't. it is all my f&*%$ fault. i push too hard, i am too much of a spaz, i have never been able to shut up...amd i thought i finally found someone who could deal with ME..who i really am...but i did go too far. i lost track of me...i let me get out of control. but htat doesn't mean it can't be reined in. give it a chance. if it hurts this much it can't be right.i doth protest. damn it!!!