Another Day...
Everybody says it will get better, and I'm sure it will. It was only vt after all right? Why would I get so upset?
I am more pissed off than anything today. No, that's a lie, I spent most the day choking back tears as I sat in a meeting for four hours with my co-workers as we tried to plan for an event this Sunday. I sure did not want them to know what I was crying about. So somehow, I put on that happy face.
I am also mad at myself, for missing him so much already! Still! whatever! I keep trying to tell myself he doesn't/didn't deserve the love (yes I know it's a strong word but I did/do love him. He took my heart and broke it into a million pieces. UGH! I hate him!
Did you ever notice how strong human emotions can be? Well perhaps not all of us, but mine are quite volatile at times. Not that I'm going to kick some body's ass, but that I can just get upset, or excited beyond the norm. Do you think I could be bi-polar like Brittany? Do you think she really is or is this another ploy for attention? Will I ever stop rambling again? LOL
To my few friends that I have here and those that read me, thank you, for the support and for not yelling "enough is enough"! I will be fine. I know it now. Just today, I was overly tired, my Buckeyes got their asses stomped again, and I miss him.
ta ta for now,
Carol
I am more pissed off than anything today. No, that's a lie, I spent most the day choking back tears as I sat in a meeting for four hours with my co-workers as we tried to plan for an event this Sunday. I sure did not want them to know what I was crying about. So somehow, I put on that happy face.
I am also mad at myself, for missing him so much already! Still! whatever! I keep trying to tell myself he doesn't/didn't deserve the love (yes I know it's a strong word but I did/do love him. He took my heart and broke it into a million pieces. UGH! I hate him!
Did you ever notice how strong human emotions can be? Well perhaps not all of us, but mine are quite volatile at times. Not that I'm going to kick some body's ass, but that I can just get upset, or excited beyond the norm. Do you think I could be bi-polar like Brittany? Do you think she really is or is this another ploy for attention? Will I ever stop rambling again? LOL
To my few friends that I have here and those that read me, thank you, for the support and for not yelling "enough is enough"! I will be fine. I know it now. Just today, I was overly tired, my Buckeyes got their asses stomped again, and I miss him.
ta ta for now,
Carol