Feeling guilty
I feel that the past few weeks I've been ignoring my friends. I know it's not really the case, working the hours that I have been the last thing I've wanted to do is spend time in front of the PC. But it still feels like I've not been making any effort (not TOTALLY true, but there is some truth in there).
I've been spending some time online, but not really on messenger. When I have then it's mainly been on Yahoo and not MSN. This is due to there being way too many people on MSN, and if I logged on I'd end up with a number on conversations. So if anyone wants to catch me, then for the forseeable future Yahoo is the place to be! The main people I actually speak to these days are on there anyways (at least have a Yahoo ID, not always logged on there). Those of you not on Yahoo and want/need a chat, then please do email/text/call me and I'll either call you or log onto MSN.
I know that there may look as though there's some double standards going on, and I'm also aware that it may look as though I don't "need" any of my friends now that J is on the scene fully. I know that the people who know me well enough will know the truth, most have known me for long enough. Those that don't understand need to get to know me better I guess.
Right now, I really need to get my head around things at home and get life straight at work. Once the overtime calms right down then I'll have the energy to spend a couple of hours in an evening catching up with friends. I really hope it's sooner rather then later ... I so need my friends for support right now and wish that I didn't need to depend on this machine to keep in touch with them.
Dispite this post seeming like I'm justifying myself, I still feel guilty for maybe not giving them the attention they may need. I know what it feels like and it's not nice.
Well, it's been a long and tiring day. Think I'll grab a shower and watch some TV in bed.
I've been spending some time online, but not really on messenger. When I have then it's mainly been on Yahoo and not MSN. This is due to there being way too many people on MSN, and if I logged on I'd end up with a number on conversations. So if anyone wants to catch me, then for the forseeable future Yahoo is the place to be! The main people I actually speak to these days are on there anyways (at least have a Yahoo ID, not always logged on there). Those of you not on Yahoo and want/need a chat, then please do email/text/call me and I'll either call you or log onto MSN.
I know that there may look as though there's some double standards going on, and I'm also aware that it may look as though I don't "need" any of my friends now that J is on the scene fully. I know that the people who know me well enough will know the truth, most have known me for long enough. Those that don't understand need to get to know me better I guess.
Right now, I really need to get my head around things at home and get life straight at work. Once the overtime calms right down then I'll have the energy to spend a couple of hours in an evening catching up with friends. I really hope it's sooner rather then later ... I so need my friends for support right now and wish that I didn't need to depend on this machine to keep in touch with them.
Dispite this post seeming like I'm justifying myself, I still feel guilty for maybe not giving them the attention they may need. I know what it feels like and it's not nice.
Well, it's been a long and tiring day. Think I'll grab a shower and watch some TV in bed.