Erroneous
I know too little I know too much. That's it I've had enough. Get over it. It's over and done. I'm tired of the past I'm sick of the future. Why can't you see that it's hurting me? They say they love me, they want too protect me. They say that I shouldn't know all that I do yet you tell me the things I'm not supposed to know over and over again. I miss the past I'm scared of the future. I don't know how to act. I don't know what to say anymore. You're right, I do know too much and there are things I don't know. But the difference is that I don't want to know them. It's affecting the way I see the people I love and how I live. The past doesn't affect me but the more I hear it the more it does. It's turning me into the person I don't want to be. It's making me re-think about the people I love. No one hears what I have to say, their just quick to respond back. They criticize how I live and what I've done, but I had no control. Please don't punish me for the things other people have done in their life. I wish it wasn't like this.
The more I hear. The more you say. It's changing me to be my brother. I guess that's how I should be from now on. Not to say how I'm feeling. How I want to live my life. Who to love, who to hate just because of their relationship with someone else. There's no escape anymore. The things I loved have turned to dust. The same goes for the things I touch. I'm doing things I always said I wouldn't. Why? Because there the only ways I can get away from all the hurt. From all the pain. Everywhere I look all I see are memories. Good and bad. But no one seems to remember the good. They only want to see the bad. I have too much going on in my life to worry about what happened 10 years ago or even 5. It's the past. Why do we let that run our lives? Live for the future, run from the past. That's how it should be. I miss you guys so much and I never see you any more. Who can I trust to not tell me all the bad things or the things that happened between everyone else? The things around me make me think down on all the things I’ve accomplished in my life. I just want a loving relationship like I had when I was 5. There were no problems. My biggest worry was staying up late. I knew everyone loved me. I didn't know of all the faults everyone had done. I wish I still didn't know. It would make life so much easier. I don't want to hear I'm wrong for trusting the people that I do. I don't care what a piece of paper says.
People make mistakes everyday. There's no possible way for us too know what is the right choice to make at the time. They did what they thought was best. You weren't there so you don't have a right to say anything about the subject. But I WAS there, and I would have done the same thing and made the same choice. She wouldn't be where she is today if it wasn't done. The grass is always greener on the other side till you get there and realize that it's not. You lay in the grave you dug. It's your own fault. That's life. That's how you grow and learn. He did his best and I think he’s been and done great.
The more I hear. The more you say. It's changing me to be my brother. I guess that's how I should be from now on. Not to say how I'm feeling. How I want to live my life. Who to love, who to hate just because of their relationship with someone else. There's no escape anymore. The things I loved have turned to dust. The same goes for the things I touch. I'm doing things I always said I wouldn't. Why? Because there the only ways I can get away from all the hurt. From all the pain. Everywhere I look all I see are memories. Good and bad. But no one seems to remember the good. They only want to see the bad. I have too much going on in my life to worry about what happened 10 years ago or even 5. It's the past. Why do we let that run our lives? Live for the future, run from the past. That's how it should be. I miss you guys so much and I never see you any more. Who can I trust to not tell me all the bad things or the things that happened between everyone else? The things around me make me think down on all the things I’ve accomplished in my life. I just want a loving relationship like I had when I was 5. There were no problems. My biggest worry was staying up late. I knew everyone loved me. I didn't know of all the faults everyone had done. I wish I still didn't know. It would make life so much easier. I don't want to hear I'm wrong for trusting the people that I do. I don't care what a piece of paper says.
People make mistakes everyday. There's no possible way for us too know what is the right choice to make at the time. They did what they thought was best. You weren't there so you don't have a right to say anything about the subject. But I WAS there, and I would have done the same thing and made the same choice. She wouldn't be where she is today if it wasn't done. The grass is always greener on the other side till you get there and realize that it's not. You lay in the grave you dug. It's your own fault. That's life. That's how you grow and learn. He did his best and I think he’s been and done great.