apperception

[fayefiend]

sometimes i just dont seem to understand myself very much .i mean am i like some manic depressive or something.i know everyone goes through their teenage angst i hate myself and the world is against me type thing,but what if its not a teenager phase.then what is it?i wish i could just analyze my life and put into categories so i can figure out how things happen and why .if things could be so easy .why do i always have to complain ,dont i have something better to talk about then how bad my life is,which in reality is not bad at all .well like alfred adler said,"the primary need of all humans is a need to feel they belong..."why is that?why do humans think like that anyway?

i just dont understand though,why I feel like that .i mean ive got family who love me,friends that care....or i dont know,im not even sure if i have friends that care,it seems to me like theyre wrapped up in their own problems to care and i just dont want to bug them ..i dont want to burden people with my problems.

........i feel like im just a burden on everyone