i got the message long before you said you knew...

[fayefiend]

this is gonna be pretty tough to get over. who does he think he is being such an asshole to me? who am i kidding? i knew this wasnt gonna work from the beginning. i knew he wasnt over his ex girlfriend yet i was like yeah i wanna be with you. why couldnt he just not tell me how he felt? he should have been sure of what he wanted first. instead of springing everything up on me so fast. it hurts. it really hurts. but i cant be too upset because its notlike we were together for long. i admit he made me really happy even if it was for a brief moment in time. i dont regret what was said that rainy easter night. i dont regret what we did. i dont regret our kiss. and hope he didnt either. after all he was the one that made that move. he was the one that established everything. i mean i waited since halloween for everything. and it all ended so fast. he ignited all the feelings in me i never thought i could ever display to him.

the sad thing is ive waited for so long for him, and no matter how much this will affect me and hurt me, ill still wait for him, as long as it takes.i knwo what i want. i know how my future looks with him. and i like it. ugh he doesnt know what he does to me