lonesomeville
population: me.
I dont get it really. I spend alot of time with friends, and people i care about.. but.. the feeling sits in the pit of my stomach. I'm lonely everywhere I go. and its the worst when i want to sleep. Sitting in bed. All be myself. In the dark. Listening to the ceiling fan spin. Then after thrity minutes of that, i usually start a movie, because the silence is starting to make me egdy. Why? Why can't I sleep? Cause I'm lonely. I fear that I'll have to leave the rest of my life alone. I wouldn't hurt anyone that way...
move back to my mother, but i think i said something about that a couple posts back. whatever. lost of pent up feelings.. feelings i dont feel like discussing. not yet.. not now. lots of anger.. lots of pain.. i figure, i'll let it go away and then everything will be fine.
my boss is going on vacation, and while she is gone, i have to open.. Monday thur Sat.. no, wait.. I close Sat. Which means I do everything. Conference call, mid-week figures, Export payroll, daily deposts, ect.. should be fun.. though thruday wont be.. 9:30 am to 6:30 pm.. I might as while work all day. *shrugs* whatever.
I dont get it really. I spend alot of time with friends, and people i care about.. but.. the feeling sits in the pit of my stomach. I'm lonely everywhere I go. and its the worst when i want to sleep. Sitting in bed. All be myself. In the dark. Listening to the ceiling fan spin. Then after thrity minutes of that, i usually start a movie, because the silence is starting to make me egdy. Why? Why can't I sleep? Cause I'm lonely. I fear that I'll have to leave the rest of my life alone. I wouldn't hurt anyone that way...
move back to my mother, but i think i said something about that a couple posts back. whatever. lost of pent up feelings.. feelings i dont feel like discussing. not yet.. not now. lots of anger.. lots of pain.. i figure, i'll let it go away and then everything will be fine.
my boss is going on vacation, and while she is gone, i have to open.. Monday thur Sat.. no, wait.. I close Sat. Which means I do everything. Conference call, mid-week figures, Export payroll, daily deposts, ect.. should be fun.. though thruday wont be.. 9:30 am to 6:30 pm.. I might as while work all day. *shrugs* whatever.