annoyed
Well I feel like crap. I think half my friends have turned their backs on me, and the other half just don't really come around because they are busy with their other friends. I don't understand where I went wrong, maybe it was caring too much and trying to make them happy no matter how I felt, or maybe it was me putting them before myself. But whatever it is it's bullshit. I don't think I deserve this shit. I put up with the stuff my friends tell me and I keep an open mind then they blow me off, or misuse me in some way or another. I'm starting to think friends are not worth my time and energy. But some where I'm sure some where I did something to have this coming, maybe I coughed wrong.
1)God look at Wolfe, she's a bitch to me all the time, hits me and yells at me, calls me a child and everything. But still expects me to be her friend and cook and clean.
2)And Aaron, *sigh* he bitches about things I do and doubts me every chance he gets. But at least he doesn't use me much and we are actually friends.
3)Felix, at least with her I feel as an equal and not a child. We don't talk much since we fought last year. But she is still the only thing I have to a good friend.
4)Mike, *sigh* he too makes me feel as an equal, he's nice to me as well. But of course like every friendship I have it, too has issues. *sigh* For starters we live too far away to have a real face to face conversation,which isn't the worst thing I've dealt with, neither one of us can change it so its deal able. I think the worst part in our friendship is I value it so much that I feel he is shying away from me, but its just a feeling. But even with everything he is still one of my top friends, because he doesn't normally make me feel like crap, and if he does its an accident.
Well that was a great rant, watch one of my friends are going to read this and come freak out on me or not talk to me again. But I don't care, I'm tired of feeling used and ignored. So damn it if they are really friends they'll understand.
1)God look at Wolfe, she's a bitch to me all the time, hits me and yells at me, calls me a child and everything. But still expects me to be her friend and cook and clean.
2)And Aaron, *sigh* he bitches about things I do and doubts me every chance he gets. But at least he doesn't use me much and we are actually friends.
3)Felix, at least with her I feel as an equal and not a child. We don't talk much since we fought last year. But she is still the only thing I have to a good friend.
4)Mike, *sigh* he too makes me feel as an equal, he's nice to me as well. But of course like every friendship I have it, too has issues. *sigh* For starters we live too far away to have a real face to face conversation,which isn't the worst thing I've dealt with, neither one of us can change it so its deal able. I think the worst part in our friendship is I value it so much that I feel he is shying away from me, but its just a feeling. But even with everything he is still one of my top friends, because he doesn't normally make me feel like crap, and if he does its an accident.
Well that was a great rant, watch one of my friends are going to read this and come freak out on me or not talk to me again. But I don't care, I'm tired of feeling used and ignored. So damn it if they are really friends they'll understand.