trying to find my beat
Hi all.
So we begin a new week. I'm doing well at work. Really, working isn't going to challenge me at all. I suppose the challenge will be to keep going every day, but then again I realize I'm in a rather large club of people who live for weekends. No point in whining.
There do seem to be quite a few opportunities that wouldn't suck at this company. With luck and a bit of shmoozing, I will someday have one of them for my very own.
Today, I learned that there are different kinds of smart. For example, I'm a very intelligent individual, but I've never been called upon to read a bus map. I now know how. I spoke with someone, very smart in her own right but who has not had the luxury of my educational background, and she helped me understand what I was looking at. I then called and verified some of the information with the bus people themselves. I am now educated as to how the bus system works. Here's what I know:
Just because you are taking the bus doesn't mean you aren't going to be required to walk half way there just to get to the appropriate stop.
The times on the schedule are guidelines, and if your stop is between two of the major stops--the ones that qualify to be printed--you need to be at the stop in time for the stop before you and be prepared to wait plus or minus ten minutes. Of course, if you have to wait minus ten minutes, the bus was really early, unlike you, who are going to be really late.
It takes an hour to safely travel four miles, leaving time for the walks to and from stops, the wait just to be safe, and the I-didn't-have-a-choice-the-next-scheduled-stop-is-after-I'm-supposed-to-start-my-shift factor.
$25 a month for a bus pass is less than you'd spend on gas, and there's no money down, and you don't need insurance, and it still would be worth it to have another car.
And so I press on, looking forward to a job that works office hours (M-F, 7 or 8 or 9 ish until 4 or 5 or 6 ish) that might utilize a bit more of my brain.
I qualify to apply for positions as they become available after I've been working with the company for six months. I started July 7th. I only have 5.25 months left. I'll start making burnt sacrifices to various deities now to ensure that something is available the second I qualify to transfer.
Light a candle for me. I'll take all the help I can get.
And yet, in the land of more positive outlooks, there are nice things to say: I have a job and I make a paycheck, such as it is. I'm not being hurt in any way by my job. My health is not in question and my family is well. I know where rent is coming from, where the groceries will be, and that I will not be struggling to keep the electricity on. I'm even bringing home more than I thought I would, after taxes. There are many people who have it worse than I do.
Thanks for everyone who continues to support my endeavors, even when I myself do not.
Love to everyone, always.
Yours,
Kimberly
PS I haven't written anything in a while--there's no time. Maybe that will change soon. Who knows. We'll just keep our fingers crossed that sanity can be maintained.
So we begin a new week. I'm doing well at work. Really, working isn't going to challenge me at all. I suppose the challenge will be to keep going every day, but then again I realize I'm in a rather large club of people who live for weekends. No point in whining.
There do seem to be quite a few opportunities that wouldn't suck at this company. With luck and a bit of shmoozing, I will someday have one of them for my very own.
Today, I learned that there are different kinds of smart. For example, I'm a very intelligent individual, but I've never been called upon to read a bus map. I now know how. I spoke with someone, very smart in her own right but who has not had the luxury of my educational background, and she helped me understand what I was looking at. I then called and verified some of the information with the bus people themselves. I am now educated as to how the bus system works. Here's what I know:
Just because you are taking the bus doesn't mean you aren't going to be required to walk half way there just to get to the appropriate stop.
The times on the schedule are guidelines, and if your stop is between two of the major stops--the ones that qualify to be printed--you need to be at the stop in time for the stop before you and be prepared to wait plus or minus ten minutes. Of course, if you have to wait minus ten minutes, the bus was really early, unlike you, who are going to be really late.
It takes an hour to safely travel four miles, leaving time for the walks to and from stops, the wait just to be safe, and the I-didn't-have-a-choice-the-next-scheduled-stop-is-after-I'm-supposed-to-start-my-shift factor.
$25 a month for a bus pass is less than you'd spend on gas, and there's no money down, and you don't need insurance, and it still would be worth it to have another car.
And so I press on, looking forward to a job that works office hours (M-F, 7 or 8 or 9 ish until 4 or 5 or 6 ish) that might utilize a bit more of my brain.
I qualify to apply for positions as they become available after I've been working with the company for six months. I started July 7th. I only have 5.25 months left. I'll start making burnt sacrifices to various deities now to ensure that something is available the second I qualify to transfer.
Light a candle for me. I'll take all the help I can get.
And yet, in the land of more positive outlooks, there are nice things to say: I have a job and I make a paycheck, such as it is. I'm not being hurt in any way by my job. My health is not in question and my family is well. I know where rent is coming from, where the groceries will be, and that I will not be struggling to keep the electricity on. I'm even bringing home more than I thought I would, after taxes. There are many people who have it worse than I do.
Thanks for everyone who continues to support my endeavors, even when I myself do not.
Love to everyone, always.
Yours,
Kimberly
PS I haven't written anything in a while--there's no time. Maybe that will change soon. Who knows. We'll just keep our fingers crossed that sanity can be maintained.