I like Me
Hi everyone.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! (buzzing, horns honking, confetti throwing and all of the usual background hoopla to go with that)
2006 is a new year, and I for one plan to embrace it. I'm not going to set out a whole bunch of resolutions that I can't keep, I'm just going to stop wasting my life, and this year is as good as any to do that. We work so hard to make life happen that we forget to have a life around it. I say it's time to make a few hard choices to make life easier around here so we can have time to live it. That's right, sports fans--I'm considering the possibility of perhaps pondering the option of quitting my job sometime in 2006. I know I haven't had it long, and for those of you who have been Avid Readers, you know that there was a time when I didn't have one. That would have been when I wrote at least twice a week, back when time existed. Currently, I'm here because of a thing called "pre-approved sick"--I spent the morning at Children's Hospital with my oldest getting an MRI.
He's ok--thanks for your concern. If they saw anything that scared them they probably wouldn't have just said "your pediatrician will go over it with you when the films come in." They wouldn't have let us leave if he needed immediate surgery or anything like that. He's fine. Probably bipolar, but fine. This was just a ruling-out sort of test. Nothing like seeing the kids at Children's Hospital to make you grateful for the problems you have.
Anyway, I'm home when I would be working, and that's the only reason my Grandpa got an email and I got a moment to journal. If we found some corners to cut and I came home again, the house would always be clean, the laundry would always be done, the dinners would always be cooked, I could borrow the car once a week to do the shopping in the morning, there'd always be someone to stay with the kids when they're sick, and all in all, our evenings would be less chaotic and our lives would be more fun. Of course, all the reasons I got the job in the first place still exist, so I'm not drafting my letter of resignation just yet, but I'm loving the thought of doing so in the next six months.
So, that's a big happy hopeful for 2006.
Also, I'm considering drastic relocation.
That's not something you just do because you had a fabulous weekend, but it is something I'm trying to work towards. If Hubby does really well, we can pay off debt and start throwing his resume out there so he can hopefully get a great job that will pay the bills in a place where the cost of living is lower and owning a house is something that can be accomplished even if you aren't a television producer or a movie star. If Hubby doesn't do well, then a drastic change may be our only option anyway, and of course it makes sense to move somewhere where the cost of living is less. I'd rather move with money, a job, medical insurance, and all of the nice things that make drastic moves more realistic, but I've moved under duress before.
Basically, I have a plan in which the best case scenario and the worst case scenario end the same way, and that is really comforting. And having something drastic to look towards is exciting and hopeful and forces life into my life. I shall take the kids to museums and botanical gardens, we shall make a point to have a meal in every sub-city that is called "little (insert foreign country name here)." I figure that's the cheapest way to travel, and there are several "little" places in LA, so it's possible. I shall try to make the most of life and where I am because I will be leaving it. Hopefully. Later. But still.
Best of all, I have wonderful people in my life who have reminded me that I am a creative person with purpose beyond my current to-do list. They inspire me to do lots of things, but mostly they inspire me to be happy. They don't make me happy--only I can make me happy--but they make it really easy to be happy. I am in love with life again, and it is in many ways because of them.
Thank you, my dear friends, for a fabulous New Year--not just the weekend, but the whole year that lay before us. You have found your way to the dormant optimist in me, and for that there is no thanks powerful enough. I shall repay you as I can, with smiles and joy and hope that I didn't have before. May my smiles be contagious, and may you feel them in your heart and replay them in memory until we can visit again. Soon, right?
And so I leave you all with hope and happiness and promise that isn't just a passing fad, it's an honest-to-goodness life choice. May you find the things in your own lives that are pulling you down and find a way to remove them. May you find the things and people in your life that build you up and make you happy, and embrace them with everything that you are. May you throw away convention and inhibition and restriction and take life for a vivacious romp rather than taking life for granted. Find a few rules, ask yourself why they are there, and if you don't have a good enough answer, break them. And raise the bar on "good enough" while you're at it. Take risks you didn't think you could take. Try something new at least once a week. Paint your room a crazy color--deposit be damned. Offer your heart without strings and give your love freely. Redefine your life, yourself, and your choices until they are all actually yours.
Then write me. I'd love to hear all about it. It would give my life more purpose. I would like to be as inspiring as I have been inspired.
Happy Holidays, both recent past and yet to come. Celebrate every day just because you're here for it. Happy New Year--and may you each find a way to make it truly "New."
Love and well wishes to everyone, but to my inspiration--I truly love you, and admire you, and think of you always. Really, we need to find a new title, because you go way beyond "friends."
Thank you for my life.
Yours,
Kimberly
HAPPY NEW YEAR! (buzzing, horns honking, confetti throwing and all of the usual background hoopla to go with that)
2006 is a new year, and I for one plan to embrace it. I'm not going to set out a whole bunch of resolutions that I can't keep, I'm just going to stop wasting my life, and this year is as good as any to do that. We work so hard to make life happen that we forget to have a life around it. I say it's time to make a few hard choices to make life easier around here so we can have time to live it. That's right, sports fans--I'm considering the possibility of perhaps pondering the option of quitting my job sometime in 2006. I know I haven't had it long, and for those of you who have been Avid Readers, you know that there was a time when I didn't have one. That would have been when I wrote at least twice a week, back when time existed. Currently, I'm here because of a thing called "pre-approved sick"--I spent the morning at Children's Hospital with my oldest getting an MRI.
He's ok--thanks for your concern. If they saw anything that scared them they probably wouldn't have just said "your pediatrician will go over it with you when the films come in." They wouldn't have let us leave if he needed immediate surgery or anything like that. He's fine. Probably bipolar, but fine. This was just a ruling-out sort of test. Nothing like seeing the kids at Children's Hospital to make you grateful for the problems you have.
Anyway, I'm home when I would be working, and that's the only reason my Grandpa got an email and I got a moment to journal. If we found some corners to cut and I came home again, the house would always be clean, the laundry would always be done, the dinners would always be cooked, I could borrow the car once a week to do the shopping in the morning, there'd always be someone to stay with the kids when they're sick, and all in all, our evenings would be less chaotic and our lives would be more fun. Of course, all the reasons I got the job in the first place still exist, so I'm not drafting my letter of resignation just yet, but I'm loving the thought of doing so in the next six months.
So, that's a big happy hopeful for 2006.
Also, I'm considering drastic relocation.
That's not something you just do because you had a fabulous weekend, but it is something I'm trying to work towards. If Hubby does really well, we can pay off debt and start throwing his resume out there so he can hopefully get a great job that will pay the bills in a place where the cost of living is lower and owning a house is something that can be accomplished even if you aren't a television producer or a movie star. If Hubby doesn't do well, then a drastic change may be our only option anyway, and of course it makes sense to move somewhere where the cost of living is less. I'd rather move with money, a job, medical insurance, and all of the nice things that make drastic moves more realistic, but I've moved under duress before.
Basically, I have a plan in which the best case scenario and the worst case scenario end the same way, and that is really comforting. And having something drastic to look towards is exciting and hopeful and forces life into my life. I shall take the kids to museums and botanical gardens, we shall make a point to have a meal in every sub-city that is called "little (insert foreign country name here)." I figure that's the cheapest way to travel, and there are several "little" places in LA, so it's possible. I shall try to make the most of life and where I am because I will be leaving it. Hopefully. Later. But still.
Best of all, I have wonderful people in my life who have reminded me that I am a creative person with purpose beyond my current to-do list. They inspire me to do lots of things, but mostly they inspire me to be happy. They don't make me happy--only I can make me happy--but they make it really easy to be happy. I am in love with life again, and it is in many ways because of them.
Thank you, my dear friends, for a fabulous New Year--not just the weekend, but the whole year that lay before us. You have found your way to the dormant optimist in me, and for that there is no thanks powerful enough. I shall repay you as I can, with smiles and joy and hope that I didn't have before. May my smiles be contagious, and may you feel them in your heart and replay them in memory until we can visit again. Soon, right?
And so I leave you all with hope and happiness and promise that isn't just a passing fad, it's an honest-to-goodness life choice. May you find the things in your own lives that are pulling you down and find a way to remove them. May you find the things and people in your life that build you up and make you happy, and embrace them with everything that you are. May you throw away convention and inhibition and restriction and take life for a vivacious romp rather than taking life for granted. Find a few rules, ask yourself why they are there, and if you don't have a good enough answer, break them. And raise the bar on "good enough" while you're at it. Take risks you didn't think you could take. Try something new at least once a week. Paint your room a crazy color--deposit be damned. Offer your heart without strings and give your love freely. Redefine your life, yourself, and your choices until they are all actually yours.
Then write me. I'd love to hear all about it. It would give my life more purpose. I would like to be as inspiring as I have been inspired.
Happy Holidays, both recent past and yet to come. Celebrate every day just because you're here for it. Happy New Year--and may you each find a way to make it truly "New."
Love and well wishes to everyone, but to my inspiration--I truly love you, and admire you, and think of you always. Really, we need to find a new title, because you go way beyond "friends."
Thank you for my life.
Yours,
Kimberly