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Not so much coming to terms with, but realizing just how undesirable I am as a person, friend or otherwise. I'm not even really sure how to describe it, just things like the fact that I kind of hate everything and everyone. Everything I enjoy, look forward to, etc I absolutely have to find flaws in. The same applies to people I like. I can be in a perfect situation and find some reason to not like where I am or what's happening. I can take friendships and completely write them out of my life.