It's still dark out......
.....so why the hell is it, that I have to wake up before daylight.........most every day. Today, it was 4:45 am. Wide awake, no nature calling, no aches n pains (took pain meds before I crashed on sofa), no noises......just wide awake. I feel well rested.
I just guess this makes me reflect back to hearing my father up creepin around about this time. I always thought the man was nuts, 'He could be S L E E P I N G ! !' What is there to do being awake this early? Can't vacuum, who wants to wake the kids? lol, or worse yet, the neighbors?? So I sit here, with my yummy cup of coffee, which I never drank til I hit about 30, and smoke like a chimney. I am actually wondering where my prescription is for the Chantix, as I am tired of smoking. I don't get any real enjoyment from it. It depresses me that I went my whole youth with surviving the peer pressure, and out of the blue, picked one up about 8 yrs ago. How stupid is that?
I actually was going through a very rough stage in my life, with liver problems, Dr put me on some experimental chemo crap and I got sooo sick from it. I couldn't even look at a box of food without puking my guts out. The menthol cig's calmed my stomach. Now I am addicted.
About the liver problems....All seems fine for now, been fine ever since actually. Dr's didn't know what was wrong, but my liver cells were very enlarged. I got sick, felt itchy and soooo tired. Bloodwork revealed the liver problem. I had a biopsy, which came back, no cirrosis, just very enlarged cells. They tested me for tons of stuff, all negative. I was on chemo for a year along with 5000 mgs of some ohter med, and after going from 172 down to 120lbs, I made it through. I felt like I was dying. But, hey, thats all past now. I get blood work done every year, and so far so good. I have returned to 175, back to normal.....whatever that's s'pose to mean. LOL Although I miss being 120!!
Ok, Enough for now. Too much thinkin so early in the AM. I think I'll print out a couple more chapters for school.