Broken down on the memory lane (Alone together alone)
I'd never thought I'd ever have a half-real IM talk without crappy small talks and a overload of brainless HAHAHAHAHAs, but last night, me and Nat., - I'll show you what's real, and I wouldn't blame you/ give a shizz one bit if you ran away or licked your gossip lips maliciously. Jackal eyes.
23:32:17[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
next time we just sit somewhere with OUR awesome music.
stare at the sky, and all. ( :
23:53:54I say:
You've got words hanging on the tip of your tongue, its so far out and heavy that hell, you just want to say it, but its the lips that will always hold it back, because its not okay to be emo.
23:55:04[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Yeah it never is.
23:55:14[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
People will judge you for it.
Think you can't handle your emotions well and etc,
00:09:18[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
You wait for someone to hold you up, but sometimes he/she doesn't.
00:09:19[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
You just falter and wilt.
00:10:01I say:
Sometimes you feel like everyone's not good enough. But somedays you're just all, its my problem. I am why I don't get it.
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00:15:17I say:
Why I feel that way, its not just my looks but just. the feeling that already burned itself onto you soul, that voice that lives underneath your skin, loud, girly laughs will never make it never go away. It stays, breathes, and takes just one cut to release it all.
00:17:03[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Yeah truth to speak, I even did thought of that before.
00:17:08[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
But I didnt succumb to it in the end.
00:17:28[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
I didnt want it to be what I looked for everything, something's wrong.
00:17:39[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
The same here. Appearance, and everything that goes with it. Life in general yeah?
00:18:29I say:
That song, who I am hates who I've been?
00:18:51I say:
This isn't a place for me to try to live my life.
00:20:15[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Relient K?
00:20:20[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Haha, eh you know. I know it's really extremely hard to trust someone.
00:20:32[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Who knows when they going just stab you, be it front or back.
00:20:55[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Sometimes, you just grow numb to it. Sometimes, thats really what hurts.
00:20:57[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Esp if it's someone you love.
00:21:53I say:
Thing is, you've got one shot, you've got a million hungry eyes and a thousand gossip lips but just one in a millionth listening ear and sometimes you don't want to go forward anymore , don't wanna fight for anything, but then just like how you're in a crowd, a drunk pissed mosh pit, yes you see the exit and you try, try to make your way but then they drag you towards the stage anyways.
Cause its not like you can call in sick and cancel life.
But to have something like these, these words I could cling onto like sponge to water, its enough to get me through all the sunny, vain days of my bimbotic life.
What-fucking-ever. Hell to everyone who've said, thought, gossiped that I was one hell of a bimbo with no minddof mah own and no life. Hey, at least I don't spend my time having a big discussion on how ugly some random guy's Facebook photo was when for fuck's sake you only know someone who knows someone who knows someone he once knew- well you just wanna be a part of this (everything).
(In other less emo notes for the week)
Heyjay(le) AYEDAL pwnnnage alert! ;D
Bunny homedawgs & morning bites &ImustlearnJapanesewell & my new friend = half-real smiles and bigbig hugs ;D
Natgirlie <3
You know I mean it, this time in a ridiculously many times I've said it to everyone else.
23:32:17[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
next time we just sit somewhere with OUR awesome music.
stare at the sky, and all. ( :
23:53:54I say:
You've got words hanging on the tip of your tongue, its so far out and heavy that hell, you just want to say it, but its the lips that will always hold it back, because its not okay to be emo.
23:55:04[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Yeah it never is.
23:55:14[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
People will judge you for it.
Think you can't handle your emotions well and etc,
00:09:18[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
You wait for someone to hold you up, but sometimes he/she doesn't.
00:09:19[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
You just falter and wilt.
00:10:01I say:
Sometimes you feel like everyone's not good enough. But somedays you're just all, its my problem. I am why I don't get it.
[/edit cut]
00:15:17I say:
Why I feel that way, its not just my looks but just. the feeling that already burned itself onto you soul, that voice that lives underneath your skin, loud, girly laughs will never make it never go away. It stays, breathes, and takes just one cut to release it all.
00:17:03[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Yeah truth to speak, I even did thought of that before.
00:17:08[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
But I didnt succumb to it in the end.
00:17:28[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
I didnt want it to be what I looked for everything, something's wrong.
00:17:39[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
The same here. Appearance, and everything that goes with it. Life in general yeah?
00:18:29I say:
That song, who I am hates who I've been?
00:18:51I say:
This isn't a place for me to try to live my life.
00:20:15[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Relient K?
00:20:20[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Haha, eh you know. I know it's really extremely hard to trust someone.
00:20:32[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Who knows when they going just stab you, be it front or back.
00:20:55[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Sometimes, you just grow numb to it. Sometimes, thats really what hurts.
00:20:57[Natalie] Pictures Of You ( : says:
Esp if it's someone you love.
00:21:53I say:
Thing is, you've got one shot, you've got a million hungry eyes and a thousand gossip lips but just one in a millionth listening ear and sometimes you don't want to go forward anymore , don't wanna fight for anything, but then just like how you're in a crowd, a drunk pissed mosh pit, yes you see the exit and you try, try to make your way but then they drag you towards the stage anyways.
Cause its not like you can call in sick and cancel life.
But to have something like these, these words I could cling onto like sponge to water, its enough to get me through all the sunny, vain days of my bimbotic life.
What-fucking-ever. Hell to everyone who've said, thought, gossiped that I was one hell of a bimbo with no minddof mah own and no life. Hey, at least I don't spend my time having a big discussion on how ugly some random guy's Facebook photo was when for fuck's sake you only know someone who knows someone who knows someone he once knew- well you just wanna be a part of this (everything).
(In other less emo notes for the week)
Heyjay(le) AYEDAL pwnnnage alert! ;D
Bunny homedawgs & morning bites &ImustlearnJapanesewell & my new friend = half-real smiles and bigbig hugs ;D
Natgirlie <3
You know I mean it, this time in a ridiculously many times I've said it to everyone else.