youve left me in a safe place to rott away
i was so happy tonight. but ive come down in the past two hours because kris didnt come over :(
i hate not seeing him. and he never believes me when i tell him how much he means to me.
in one ear out the other.
i see myself with a full schedule someday.
someday ill have a job and friends and go to school.
someday i wont live with my parents.
someday ill be able to come home and have dinner with kris.
well talk about our day and decide what to watch on tv.
someday ill have a big dog that likes to play
someday ill wake up and hell be the first thing i see.
sometimes thats all i think about. i just think about moving away with kris.
and us having this perfect simple life.
a little place to live, just the two of us!
saying good morning, drinking coffee off to school or work or where ever
going about my day, doing what i do. cutting someones hair
doing someones make up.
coming home after a long day, going through junk mail
making dinner
then he comes home with his guitar and we eat dinner together.
we talk about our day. we laugh.
we watch a movie and go to bed. quiet talking until falling asleep
waking up and doing it all over again.
i dont know if you know this but im so dependent on you. without you, i dont know what i am, i dont know what i was.
i was sad, and callous and i pretended that nothing bothered me.
i was no one to everyone.
i was nothing special to anyone special.
nothing was special.
since youve picked me up ive wanted nothing more than to spend every minute with you.
when i feel you push me away my heart breaks.
when i push you away all i want is for you to hug me and kiss me until i forget.
im going to cry while your gone.
im going to miss you everyday i dont see you.
im going to wish i was with you instead of rotting here
i wish you understood how much i love you
how much i always want to be with you
and when im not with you all i do is talk about you
you know this is true, i dont see how you couldnt.
what do i have without you?
i hate not seeing him. and he never believes me when i tell him how much he means to me.
in one ear out the other.
i see myself with a full schedule someday.
someday ill have a job and friends and go to school.
someday i wont live with my parents.
someday ill be able to come home and have dinner with kris.
well talk about our day and decide what to watch on tv.
someday ill have a big dog that likes to play
someday ill wake up and hell be the first thing i see.
sometimes thats all i think about. i just think about moving away with kris.
and us having this perfect simple life.
a little place to live, just the two of us!
saying good morning, drinking coffee off to school or work or where ever
going about my day, doing what i do. cutting someones hair
doing someones make up.
coming home after a long day, going through junk mail
making dinner
then he comes home with his guitar and we eat dinner together.
we talk about our day. we laugh.
we watch a movie and go to bed. quiet talking until falling asleep
waking up and doing it all over again.
i dont know if you know this but im so dependent on you. without you, i dont know what i am, i dont know what i was.
i was sad, and callous and i pretended that nothing bothered me.
i was no one to everyone.
i was nothing special to anyone special.
nothing was special.
since youve picked me up ive wanted nothing more than to spend every minute with you.
when i feel you push me away my heart breaks.
when i push you away all i want is for you to hug me and kiss me until i forget.
im going to cry while your gone.
im going to miss you everyday i dont see you.
im going to wish i was with you instead of rotting here
i wish you understood how much i love you
how much i always want to be with you
and when im not with you all i do is talk about you
you know this is true, i dont see how you couldnt.
what do i have without you?