Sunday...
Just finished putting the kids down to bed, did homework with them and all that, it was a long process. I never knew how much work would be involved. I have been somewhat into my own world lately. A small country college-town girl, that fell in love big time with a city singing diva.
I have to work tomorrow, I told myself that I wouldn't work on Monday's. I have some people that I just don't like to say no to though. I met Kalisha a week or so ago, and she's a great fun new friend. Teaching me that when someone wants to hang with you, they just call and say let's do this or that, it's nothing major involved like... " I'm not sure I like you enough yet to drive down and see you."
Lot in my head lately, moving to Texas and all, just going back and living that country life. Just working and getting enough to fix up my dad's home to where it's livable and has my stamp on it. I can go and in 2 to 3 years time have enough saved up to purchase my own home free and clear, somewhere else. I keep thinking about the gay life and if there'll be any lesbians down that way that I can meet and be friends with. huh... Doesn't seem so, but it may be just the slow place, expecially when it comes to dating, that I need right now.
Healing happening, at it's own pace of course. I've decided to let God bring my lover/mate, kinda find myself getting a little excited still when I meet someone new. Maybe, I'll always have that wonderment, like is this her. Whatever, guess it's just part of my make up. smh.
I'm off to bed. I still think about her all the time, pay everynite that she's well and happy. I feel her too. huh, wonder if it'll always be this way.
I have to work tomorrow, I told myself that I wouldn't work on Monday's. I have some people that I just don't like to say no to though. I met Kalisha a week or so ago, and she's a great fun new friend. Teaching me that when someone wants to hang with you, they just call and say let's do this or that, it's nothing major involved like... " I'm not sure I like you enough yet to drive down and see you."
Lot in my head lately, moving to Texas and all, just going back and living that country life. Just working and getting enough to fix up my dad's home to where it's livable and has my stamp on it. I can go and in 2 to 3 years time have enough saved up to purchase my own home free and clear, somewhere else. I keep thinking about the gay life and if there'll be any lesbians down that way that I can meet and be friends with. huh... Doesn't seem so, but it may be just the slow place, expecially when it comes to dating, that I need right now.
Healing happening, at it's own pace of course. I've decided to let God bring my lover/mate, kinda find myself getting a little excited still when I meet someone new. Maybe, I'll always have that wonderment, like is this her. Whatever, guess it's just part of my make up. smh.
I'm off to bed. I still think about her all the time, pay everynite that she's well and happy. I feel her too. huh, wonder if it'll always be this way.