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I havent written in a long time but thought tonight i should get everything out.
I wish school was over, im tired of going and tried of doing homework but still getting crappy grades. Besides school friends are good and i have been having a lot of fun with them. Erika's surpirse party planned by Brinny and Me went really well! Hmm weekend nights are good...Except saturday night wasnt the best, cant control my attitude so i got pissy, sorry everyone lol!
Dance...umm ya. Saturday rehearsal i wasnt even supposed to go but i did anyways. I was tired from Friday night so i was in a really bad mood (geeze bad moods for me are getting quiet constent (sp)..) Ya, i dont know if i want to do the show or not, like i do to dance and everything but i dont cuz it sucks being in the back, and having the same people get solos every single show and dance. Gets really OLD! Kelsey, Carly and I are going to PCDA on Monday and then on Tuesday are going to Studio D to try out a class! Im excited for Studio D, ive talked to people from there and all they say is good stuff. But i dont know how much longer i can stand to dance, weither its at the studio or not. I need a big break. On Monday i was thinking about something during class but...i dont really wanna say anything in here.
Lifes been going by really fast, not sure when its gonna stop? I want it to stop to let me enjoy things that are going on but dont think its gonna happen. I still need her and not sure what to do at this point. I feel like im losing it, like going crazy or something?
I just remembered i have to go to the doctors office soon. Im scared! I have to get tested for Birth Control...and i hate needles and anything involved with them. Dont worry about the BC i need to get it for the big P! Brinny im scared to get it taken, you said it doesnt hurt but everything seems to hurt me. By the way sorry about Saturday did reall know what i was saying. I love you.
Im done for now, that wasnt even the half of it but i havent started my weekend homework yet and damn schools tomorrow.