Never dreamed possible.
So here I am, 19 years old sitting in front of my laptop, worrying myself over something that might be completely blown up.
I think I might've had a miscarriage.
Yeah, I said it. It's actually pretty weird seeing it down like that. Anyways, here is what happened.
I woke up yesterday and I was covered in blood. It's rarely that I bleed so heavily at the beginning. Usually I just spot before it get worse. So I ruin a good pair of pretty underwear and that just ruins my day. Later on, I get back pain that's close to being unbearable. I went through three tattoos but I would gladly go through that again then the back pain I had yesterday and today. Back on track now, I decided to take some aspirin but alas, it didn't work. So I dealt with the pain. Then this morning I woke to a giant egg-sized blood clot. It was the MOST disgusting thing I have EVER seen. And it freaked me out. About 40 or so minutes ago, I get this enormous eye-watering pain near my vagina and it doubled me over. It lasted for about two minutes. That's when I decided to research this. And lo and behold, one big word flashed across my screen; MISCARRIAGE. I called my doctor, scheduled an appointment and then called my mom since she pays for insurance and all that. Now I'm sitting here, typing my scared little hinney off trying to calm down and get this written down before I go crazy. I'm only 19 years old. I never thought "what if I can't conceive?". Never. And now it may be happening right now, it scares me. I want to have kids more than anything. Not right now, but someday. The thought that I might not be able to is what scares me more. Other than the fact that I just might have lost a baby. But I can't think of that right now. It'll only make me feel worse. I'm trying to convince myself that everything is okay. That I'm only having a irregular period.
My doctor's appointment is tomorrow at 10:45 a.m. Wish me luck.
-Victoria
I think I might've had a miscarriage.
Yeah, I said it. It's actually pretty weird seeing it down like that. Anyways, here is what happened.
I woke up yesterday and I was covered in blood. It's rarely that I bleed so heavily at the beginning. Usually I just spot before it get worse. So I ruin a good pair of pretty underwear and that just ruins my day. Later on, I get back pain that's close to being unbearable. I went through three tattoos but I would gladly go through that again then the back pain I had yesterday and today. Back on track now, I decided to take some aspirin but alas, it didn't work. So I dealt with the pain. Then this morning I woke to a giant egg-sized blood clot. It was the MOST disgusting thing I have EVER seen. And it freaked me out. About 40 or so minutes ago, I get this enormous eye-watering pain near my vagina and it doubled me over. It lasted for about two minutes. That's when I decided to research this. And lo and behold, one big word flashed across my screen; MISCARRIAGE. I called my doctor, scheduled an appointment and then called my mom since she pays for insurance and all that. Now I'm sitting here, typing my scared little hinney off trying to calm down and get this written down before I go crazy. I'm only 19 years old. I never thought "what if I can't conceive?". Never. And now it may be happening right now, it scares me. I want to have kids more than anything. Not right now, but someday. The thought that I might not be able to is what scares me more. Other than the fact that I just might have lost a baby. But I can't think of that right now. It'll only make me feel worse. I'm trying to convince myself that everything is okay. That I'm only having a irregular period.
My doctor's appointment is tomorrow at 10:45 a.m. Wish me luck.
-Victoria