I'm Awake
I finally jumped on the bandwagon and decided to start using this livejournal account that I mainly created just so I could comment on cranley's daily ramblings. A lot of things have changed in my life in the last 6 months. Some willingly, some grudgingly, some good, some bad, but, as I have come to realize as time passes and the wounds heal, all necessary.
Sounds just like 99% of the journals already in existence doesn't it? So what makes mine special?
Nothing. This isn't supposed to be entertaining, or even interesting for anyone else. Throughout my life I have written many things, short stories and poetry when I was younger and most recently interwebsitenets (everythingisfutile.com (yes, it's coming back)). I find writing can be very therapeutic, when my ex broke up with me I wrote her a 6 page letter (that I never mailed, mind you). By trying to explain to her (in terms she could understand (she's not that smart)) why I felt the way I did it actually helped me understand the reasons why I felt the way I did, which in turn helped me see the path out of the depression that I had sunk into.
So yes, that's the 'grudging' milestone I mentioned above, the end of a two and a half year relationship. Notice I put it in the 'grudging' category but not the 'bad' category, mainly because I've come to realize that no matter how much it hurt (and still does) it was for the best.
As for the 'willling' milestone, I returned to University last semester, and I'm loving it. I've never been this interested in school before in my life, so with a little bit of luck I might actually be able to get that Bachelor of Science degree I've been eyeing for the last seven years.
Don't wish me luck; I've got skill.
Sounds just like 99% of the journals already in existence doesn't it? So what makes mine special?
Nothing. This isn't supposed to be entertaining, or even interesting for anyone else. Throughout my life I have written many things, short stories and poetry when I was younger and most recently interwebsitenets (everythingisfutile.com (yes, it's coming back)). I find writing can be very therapeutic, when my ex broke up with me I wrote her a 6 page letter (that I never mailed, mind you). By trying to explain to her (in terms she could understand (she's not that smart)) why I felt the way I did it actually helped me understand the reasons why I felt the way I did, which in turn helped me see the path out of the depression that I had sunk into.
So yes, that's the 'grudging' milestone I mentioned above, the end of a two and a half year relationship. Notice I put it in the 'grudging' category but not the 'bad' category, mainly because I've come to realize that no matter how much it hurt (and still does) it was for the best.
As for the 'willling' milestone, I returned to University last semester, and I'm loving it. I've never been this interested in school before in my life, so with a little bit of luck I might actually be able to get that Bachelor of Science degree I've been eyeing for the last seven years.
Don't wish me luck; I've got skill.