And if I haver, whatever the fuck that means I'm gonna be the man who havers next you
*sighs* Heh, Mike once said he never met anyone who sighed more then me. Maybe I'm just exasperated with life. 17 years is a long time. My stomach is queesy and I shake. This week has been, normal, as in normal I mean what use to be considered normal. Me and Mike talk and joke like we're friends, and I know I said I wasnt going to forgive him and that I was done being hurt, but now that I'm as over him as I think I can be, then maybe it'd be different, maybe I wouldnt take things personally? No, I would be hurt if Shaun or Holly or Brittany or Jamie or someone like that treated me like Mike treated me. I miss the good times though. And sometimes I just want to pull him aside and yell at him, tell him how he's ruining his life, and how he's being such an asshole, I want to make him understand that he's hurting people that care about him. Because I hate watching him do this to himself. And maybe I am 30 like Tim said, but I cant help it. I feel ill. I will admit to this, if he wanted to iniate the friendship again I would totally be his friend again. But at the same time I would want to tell him no, not because he's hurt me, but because when he does hurt me I dont exactly treat him that great back. I dunno, I feel like we're slowly becoming friends again and that scares me and makes me happy at the same time. I dunno, I'm split in two, well actually 3 but I dont want to explain that. Geo deleted his livejournal and I understand enough not to question why, but even if we did ignore the other night its been too awkward to hold a conversation and I doubt he'd tell me his new livejournal. I dunno, I'm just gunna see if Pieces of Eight has a new chapter up then play ragnarok till 7:30 on which I will attempt a study session fo physics and Trig. Then try to clean my room and only then will I get a chance to read the DaVinci Code, which is my book of the month but I'll probably be too late to participate in any conversation about it. I need to make a list of books to buy. :/
Haha this song amuses me and yet its so sweet.
"When I'm lonely yes I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's lonely without you
When I'm dreaming yes I know I'm gonna dream
I gonna Dream about the time when I'm with you
And if I get drunk, yeah I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man that gets drunk next to you
And if I haver, whatever the fuck that means
I'm gonna be the man who havers next to you
And I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
To be the man who walked 1,000 miles
To fall down at your door"
That reminds me of when Julio was imagining me drunk he's like "Man you'd be dangerous if you were drunk. You would put those pieces of paper in his [Mike's] hood and throw a match in and laugh and he'd be like AAAAHHH!" English is fun. I looked up haver, it means to talk foolishly. haha. The song was originally by the proclaimers but those lyrics are the less than Jake version
Haha this song amuses me and yet its so sweet.
"When I'm lonely yes I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's lonely without you
When I'm dreaming yes I know I'm gonna dream
I gonna Dream about the time when I'm with you
And if I get drunk, yeah I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man that gets drunk next to you
And if I haver, whatever the fuck that means
I'm gonna be the man who havers next to you
And I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
To be the man who walked 1,000 miles
To fall down at your door"
That reminds me of when Julio was imagining me drunk he's like "Man you'd be dangerous if you were drunk. You would put those pieces of paper in his [Mike's] hood and throw a match in and laugh and he'd be like AAAAHHH!" English is fun. I looked up haver, it means to talk foolishly. haha. The song was originally by the proclaimers but those lyrics are the less than Jake version