Who really knows anymore?
So many emotions going through me right now I don't know how to feel. Not all good ones though I got bad ones too. First off everytime I talk to Sara on the phone I am so happy and yet also so scared and sad at the same time. Happy because she is so amazing and everytime I talk to her my heart feels good. Scared and sad because I am afraid that A) This is all just a dream B) She will go back to her ex instead of trying things with me or C) All of the above If you have ever heard the song on my Current Music it perfectly sums up everything between me and her.
My "ex" alchoholic sister disowned me today by voicemail becuase I said "damn" in front of her daughter. My neice went and told her that I was "belittleing her and calling her names and I would'nt stop saying the f-word" which is complete BS becuase my Mom was standing 20 ft away and heard exactally what I said and Aaron was sitting there too. I swear this is it. I don't care how much she appologizes to me she will never earn my respect let alone hear from me ever again. This is the loving voicemail I got while on my lunch hour at work http://www.geocities.com/captainguapo/MyLovingSister.wav
On the other hand Aaron and I have been playing Maadon like mad men. Our Maddon nights for some starnge reason is the only stable thing in my life that I know what to expect with. Thanks for being a good friend. Gah that's all the sap from that you will get outta me. Dun dun dunnnnn! After my date with Sara on Friday Aaron calls and leaves me this voicemail http://www.geocities.com/captainguapo/DrunkenAaron.wav which is the nicest, most caring as well as funny thing he has done. He is by far cooler than most of you could ever hope to be. Even when he is an ass.
My "ex" alchoholic sister disowned me today by voicemail becuase I said "damn" in front of her daughter. My neice went and told her that I was "belittleing her and calling her names and I would'nt stop saying the f-word" which is complete BS becuase my Mom was standing 20 ft away and heard exactally what I said and Aaron was sitting there too. I swear this is it. I don't care how much she appologizes to me she will never earn my respect let alone hear from me ever again. This is the loving voicemail I got while on my lunch hour at work http://www.geocities.com/captainguapo/MyLovingSister.wav
On the other hand Aaron and I have been playing Maadon like mad men. Our Maddon nights for some starnge reason is the only stable thing in my life that I know what to expect with. Thanks for being a good friend. Gah that's all the sap from that you will get outta me. Dun dun dunnnnn! After my date with Sara on Friday Aaron calls and leaves me this voicemail http://www.geocities.com/captainguapo/DrunkenAaron.wav which is the nicest, most caring as well as funny thing he has done. He is by far cooler than most of you could ever hope to be. Even when he is an ass.