isolation
Hello everyone. I realize I seldom post and I also realize I have been isolating myself a lot and then complaining about not having enough community supporting me. So hard to be the lone unashamed fat dyke in most spaces I'm in.
That being said I have been interviewing for new jobs. I have been on 5 interviews and I've made it to the second round on three of them so far. This is nerve racking and I'm exhauseted. I am so full of anxiety I feel like I can barely move. I never dealt with changing with a great deal of ambition I just keep on chugging like a steam engine with lots of nebulous feelings and wondering when I will fall apart. I managed not to for the past 8 years between grad school and my job with the little troubled ones. You'd think that I would have convinced myself by now that I'm not a fraud and that I can handle life.
AhhhhhhhhI have mexican jumping beans inside of me and I wish I had a trampoline!!
That being said I have been interviewing for new jobs. I have been on 5 interviews and I've made it to the second round on three of them so far. This is nerve racking and I'm exhauseted. I am so full of anxiety I feel like I can barely move. I never dealt with changing with a great deal of ambition I just keep on chugging like a steam engine with lots of nebulous feelings and wondering when I will fall apart. I managed not to for the past 8 years between grad school and my job with the little troubled ones. You'd think that I would have convinced myself by now that I'm not a fraud and that I can handle life.
AhhhhhhhhI have mexican jumping beans inside of me and I wish I had a trampoline!!