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Before i start this entry.. i want to work with the livejournal goat! :D
Now to get to the serious crap and get all of this off my chest, not that its on it right now or anything but still.
I am kinda pissed off with the 83 covers at work (around half wanted desserts which i do by myself and they all wanted them AT ONCE. Bastards). Not that i'm showing that mood much on MSN, as it really isn't what I'm thinking about much.
What i am seriously thinking about, and what i was thinking about yesterday is Holly. Yes you Holly. Not all this stuff about how much i love her and being totally blinded by it (even though i do love her), i have serious feelings and thoughts about her and they've decided to take over my thoughts at the moment.
She/you (delete as appropriate) can probably see that i'm not talking to her/you. Thats not really because of my pissed offness. Well i'm worried that you are slowly disappearing from me? Am i being stupid? Probably so but meh.
I'm also being a tad so jealous, well especially yesterday. It looks like you now have great friends, your life is going great and you're hanging out more. As much as thats great for you it makes me feel sad and lonely, as you are leaving me alone here. Yeah ignore me if you must but this is how i feel. You seem to be going out slightly more than before? Or thats just me being oversensitive. Which means i dont get to talk to you as often as i like. Also i have some sort of pissed offness, i know what you commented to my last post, your mum would get pissed off seriously and crap. So she'd get pissed off if someone sent something to your house but it sounds like she doesn't give a fuck about you staying out until 10pm with bikers. Yup sounds like she'd really get pissed off. Maybe this is just me being really stupid but this is how i feel. How about you ask her what she'd do? All the times i've done stuff and 'oh i wont be allowed on the net like ever, or not for a long time' and i always manage to get back on. They do forgive and stuff.
anyway, what was i feeling upsetted about? hmm.. oh yeah. I feel like you're moving away from me slowly and leaving me behind. Thats why i feel upset. And back to this thing which i was talking about yesterday except in more detail.
Do you know/realise how much i do actually care for you? Or do you just think this is just childish loving crappy thing? and how much do you 'care' or even 'love' me back? Or are you just doing this to keep me happy or out of the way or something? I would love some serious answers from you, and perhaps a hug.
There is my post, full of upsettingness, pissedoffingness and jealous. Thanks for reading (if you bothered to). Now for me to go and do other stuff somewhere.
Ooh yeah just to add back, i am out probably more than Holly, but thats because i work. Not really a choice i have in the matter (yeah i can choose when i want my days off) but still. *wanders off to my lovely pay system*
Now to get to the serious crap and get all of this off my chest, not that its on it right now or anything but still.
I am kinda pissed off with the 83 covers at work (around half wanted desserts which i do by myself and they all wanted them AT ONCE. Bastards). Not that i'm showing that mood much on MSN, as it really isn't what I'm thinking about much.
What i am seriously thinking about, and what i was thinking about yesterday is Holly. Yes you Holly. Not all this stuff about how much i love her and being totally blinded by it (even though i do love her), i have serious feelings and thoughts about her and they've decided to take over my thoughts at the moment.
She/you (delete as appropriate) can probably see that i'm not talking to her/you. Thats not really because of my pissed offness. Well i'm worried that you are slowly disappearing from me? Am i being stupid? Probably so but meh.
I'm also being a tad so jealous, well especially yesterday. It looks like you now have great friends, your life is going great and you're hanging out more. As much as thats great for you it makes me feel sad and lonely, as you are leaving me alone here. Yeah ignore me if you must but this is how i feel. You seem to be going out slightly more than before? Or thats just me being oversensitive. Which means i dont get to talk to you as often as i like. Also i have some sort of pissed offness, i know what you commented to my last post, your mum would get pissed off seriously and crap. So she'd get pissed off if someone sent something to your house but it sounds like she doesn't give a fuck about you staying out until 10pm with bikers. Yup sounds like she'd really get pissed off. Maybe this is just me being really stupid but this is how i feel. How about you ask her what she'd do? All the times i've done stuff and 'oh i wont be allowed on the net like ever, or not for a long time' and i always manage to get back on. They do forgive and stuff.
anyway, what was i feeling upsetted about? hmm.. oh yeah. I feel like you're moving away from me slowly and leaving me behind. Thats why i feel upset. And back to this thing which i was talking about yesterday except in more detail.
Do you know/realise how much i do actually care for you? Or do you just think this is just childish loving crappy thing? and how much do you 'care' or even 'love' me back? Or are you just doing this to keep me happy or out of the way or something? I would love some serious answers from you, and perhaps a hug.
There is my post, full of upsettingness, pissedoffingness and jealous. Thanks for reading (if you bothered to). Now for me to go and do other stuff somewhere.
Ooh yeah just to add back, i am out probably more than Holly, but thats because i work. Not really a choice i have in the matter (yeah i can choose when i want my days off) but still. *wanders off to my lovely pay system*