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why am i so worried about everything?
i dont understand it..
i just want things to work my way for once.
i just want to be happy again.
i dont grasp why i cant be happy. like nothing is wrong but everything is wrong all at the same time.
im stuck in a circle of blah.....
excitement is the spice of life.
and i havent had any spice in a long time. well except for a few saturdays ago.
some people say you should believe in something.
ive tryed to be an athest. doesnt work..
i've tryed/im trying to be a christian. thats not doing anything for me anymore either.
especally when the people whom are also supposed to be christians are worse in many aspect's then most non christians i know.
so religion isnt working for me.
i honestly hoped that i would end up hooking up woth tabatha because when i was with her i was actually happy... who would have thought. but thats not going to happen. well as far as i can see. unless someone knows something more than i do.
i like her alot. and i honestly think she would make me alot happier. but oh well...
nothing i can do...
i just want to feel better. if anyone knows how i can do that let me know.
i dont understand it..
i just want things to work my way for once.
i just want to be happy again.
i dont grasp why i cant be happy. like nothing is wrong but everything is wrong all at the same time.
im stuck in a circle of blah.....
excitement is the spice of life.
and i havent had any spice in a long time. well except for a few saturdays ago.
some people say you should believe in something.
ive tryed to be an athest. doesnt work..
i've tryed/im trying to be a christian. thats not doing anything for me anymore either.
especally when the people whom are also supposed to be christians are worse in many aspect's then most non christians i know.
so religion isnt working for me.
i honestly hoped that i would end up hooking up woth tabatha because when i was with her i was actually happy... who would have thought. but thats not going to happen. well as far as i can see. unless someone knows something more than i do.
i like her alot. and i honestly think she would make me alot happier. but oh well...
nothing i can do...
i just want to feel better. if anyone knows how i can do that let me know.