Go Away Past Demons
"Never has a stranger had a better taste of another town. Just time for a cowboy breakfast, that's a leak and a look around. Looks like the land of plenty, there will be plenty there to do. That might've been funny at 20, but I just turned 32. Oh well, what a let down. Oh well, what a let down."
Have you ever had the demons of your past come back at you for no apparent reason??? Right when things are perfect for me, bad memories cross my mind. How bad I treated people that I claimed to love. How much of an asshole I was to people I claimed were my friends. Why did I take things so seriously?? And why till now did I only remember the good times??? Whatever the answer to that question, it doesn't matter anymore.
Over the last couple of days I've been trying to put away those demons. I'm sick of having enemies from my wrongdoings of the past. I made alot of mistakes growing up. Told people off for no reason. Made people truly hate me. Tried to stop in-fighting and that ended causing more because I was stupid enough to take sides. Turning against people who were ALWAYS loyal friends to me and just screwing up worst than anyone truly as part of the old Crew.
Now I'm going to be turning 25 soon. An important age in my mind. I'm in a great place in my life right now, I miss come on, on Sunday me and Mandy are celebrating our one year wedding anniversary. I think now's a good time to do say this.
There are few people I truly miss. They know who they are. There are many whom I just don't want to hate me anymore. I know I will never be loved by all and I would never want that. I have enough friends now that care about me. I just want the people who were and are in my life, that I've put the feelings and hardships of the past in the past. The past happened and we all learned from it.
The asshole I was, I learned from it. I'm going to be a better person based on that knowledge.
That's all I've got.
Thank you for reading.
Have you ever had the demons of your past come back at you for no apparent reason??? Right when things are perfect for me, bad memories cross my mind. How bad I treated people that I claimed to love. How much of an asshole I was to people I claimed were my friends. Why did I take things so seriously?? And why till now did I only remember the good times??? Whatever the answer to that question, it doesn't matter anymore.
Over the last couple of days I've been trying to put away those demons. I'm sick of having enemies from my wrongdoings of the past. I made alot of mistakes growing up. Told people off for no reason. Made people truly hate me. Tried to stop in-fighting and that ended causing more because I was stupid enough to take sides. Turning against people who were ALWAYS loyal friends to me and just screwing up worst than anyone truly as part of the old Crew.
Now I'm going to be turning 25 soon. An important age in my mind. I'm in a great place in my life right now, I miss come on, on Sunday me and Mandy are celebrating our one year wedding anniversary. I think now's a good time to do say this.
There are few people I truly miss. They know who they are. There are many whom I just don't want to hate me anymore. I know I will never be loved by all and I would never want that. I have enough friends now that care about me. I just want the people who were and are in my life, that I've put the feelings and hardships of the past in the past. The past happened and we all learned from it.
The asshole I was, I learned from it. I'm going to be a better person based on that knowledge.
That's all I've got.
Thank you for reading.