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You are just a distant memory of a time in which i loved a substance more than anything else. When one thing hit rock bottom you were the wall in which i ran into. knowing this is i realize that similar to my addiction that you symbolize the same thing. you are my cocaine. i don't really want you. i don't even know if i like you. the only thing that bonded us together was your money and my connections and our significant others being in the dark about it and the need to feel a body next to mine once the drugs left.
you represent everything unhealthy and destructive in my life that i've worked so hard to overcome that your emails make me laugh at the mockery of a relationship we ever had. these things are all so obvious to me but then why do i feel such a burst of giddiness when i get them from you... when you reminisce on the times we shared together?? because i'm still addicted to that life style more than i want to admit and like my drugs of choice i need to completely eradicate you from my life. i don't know if you will understand or for that matter even care but no longer can i place that spark ahead of all the is good and right for me right now. goodbye.
you represent everything unhealthy and destructive in my life that i've worked so hard to overcome that your emails make me laugh at the mockery of a relationship we ever had. these things are all so obvious to me but then why do i feel such a burst of giddiness when i get them from you... when you reminisce on the times we shared together?? because i'm still addicted to that life style more than i want to admit and like my drugs of choice i need to completely eradicate you from my life. i don't know if you will understand or for that matter even care but no longer can i place that spark ahead of all the is good and right for me right now. goodbye.