desperate for your voice

[fathomlesssky]

I hate high school so, so much it's ridiculous. The majority of the classes are okay--the only good part is that I'm second stand/fourth chair in orchestra, even if it is Orchestra C, the Orchestra of Freshman (of doom?) I really love orchestra, even though I'm not even close to being vaguely good at the violin and I despise lugging it around like

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[hahahahowlucky]

Sky. People suck.

Really. I think so. I used to think that it was just me, that there was something wrong with me that I wasn't making all of these fabulous friends that have all the same interests as me and are fabulously witty and interesting and whatnot. I see these big groups of people, and they look so connected, and I just wanted that.

but now I've figured out that I'm not like them. And I don't want to be like them. And I'm not really quite like anyone at my school, so I just have a few good friends, and I mostly just try to stay true to myself.

Which is what you should do. If your friends don't make you feel good about yourself, than you shouldn't be hanging out with them. It's not going to help your situation. There's someone out there who will. You might not even find them in high school. I still haven't found anyone in real life I can talk to about writing or Shakespeare or fandom things. But I know there's people out there.

So people suck. And you don't, and I don't think you're lame in the least. Or, if you are, than so am I, and we'll just have to be lame together. We can buy a house and be hermits and write homoerotic mannerpunk novels, if worse comes to worse, okay? :D

[fathomlesssky]

Gosh, I wish there's someone like YOUUU in my school. I was reading Hamlet at school during class since I had nothing to do, and about four people approached me throughout the day asking if I'm reading it for class. I felt extremely awkward telling them I was reading it for fun... I wonder when I stopped relating to "normal" teenagers, let alone getting the guts to talk to them about fandom and writing and whatnot.

Yeah, friends, I just need to get some, like now :p It feels like the "popular", "connected" crowds are taunting me a lot, though, with their togetherness and friendship.

And OMG a house in which we shall hermit (because that should so be a verb) and write homoerotic mannerpunk novels will be fair trade for four years of high school agony.

People suck. But I think Fandom & LJ are my "crowd".