desperate for your voice
I hate high school so, so much it's ridiculous. The majority of the classes are okay--the only good part is that I'm second stand/fourth chair in orchestra, even if it is Orchestra C, the Orchestra of Freshman (of doom?) I really love orchestra, even though I'm not even close to being vaguely good at the violin and I despise lugging it around like a loser. (It doesn't fit in my locker, and if it did, there'd be no point anyways since my locker is on the third floor, away from like 90% of my classes.) So I store the violin in the orchestra room thingy from second period to lunch (I grab it during lunch so I don't have to come back after school, or I'd lose my seat on my bus.)
Japanese class is fairly monotonous, but it's relaxing enough, repeating syllable after syllable and communicating in simple terms. Language Arts & History also aren't terrible, even if the teachers leave something to be desirable. On the second day of school, while she was taking questions, I asked my LA teacher whether we'd be writing any fiction, and she was like OH YEAH YOU'LL BE WRITING SHORT STORIES/VIGNETTES ABOUT URSELF. Hello, I asked FICTION, teacher. The history teacher is insanely boring, like Professor Binns from Harry Potter, only a lot more interested in the continent of Africa and less of a ghost and junk. Okay, he's not so much like Binns, but he is equally dull nevertheless. Biology is stupid, but I can't say much on the subject since I've always been averse to science, and I don't want to be tooooo biased.
Math class is terrible. I'm generally fairly good at math. That was why my (fabulous) math teacher last year assigned me to Integrated 3 Honors last year even though my middle school had an inferior math educational system (AKA no AP programs). He thought I could do it. I thought I could do it. But my math teacher now is a CRAPPY TEACHER. Not as in she doesn't know anything... I'm sure she knows tons about maths and all. Now if she can just actually TEACH. All class long she gives us these assignment sheets that we're supposed to figure out "as a group", with NO explanation on how to do things at all. I understand if she's trying to let us explore the knowledge and all that junk by ourselves, but we're left with NOTHING. NO KNOWLEDGE. We're in the dark and there's no flashlight. Or at least I am. I don't know if the people from schools with good math educational systems understand this crap, but either way, she should make EVERYONE understand. Instead, she's off talking to some juniors/sophomores about complex math functions.
I did NOT get like half of the math homework I got today. I haven't been this in the dark about the math since... Ever. Not even when I went to a stinkin' prestigious private school in Hong Kong (and we all know that the math educational system in Asia is waaay harder.)
Secondly, I hate high school because I have no friends. I thought I would be able to make some new, awesome friends at a new, awesome high school, but nope. Because I am too new but not awesome enough. Everyone here was from the same middle school, so all the cliques have been established three years ago and everyone knows each other. There's no room for an outsider, at all, nary one as lame as me.
The only people I hang out with are like a couple of girls from my old school. I pretend to like them waaaay better than they pretend to like me. It's so awful, going to school everyday knowing that I'll suck at math & all of that and I'll have to endure these snide comments from my "friends" because I don't want to be completely alone. It's been a week and I haven't made any friends at all. Nobody seems to like me.
I just DON'T want to go anymore.
Japanese class is fairly monotonous, but it's relaxing enough, repeating syllable after syllable and communicating in simple terms. Language Arts & History also aren't terrible, even if the teachers leave something to be desirable. On the second day of school, while she was taking questions, I asked my LA teacher whether we'd be writing any fiction, and she was like OH YEAH YOU'LL BE WRITING SHORT STORIES/VIGNETTES ABOUT URSELF. Hello, I asked FICTION, teacher. The history teacher is insanely boring, like Professor Binns from Harry Potter, only a lot more interested in the continent of Africa and less of a ghost and junk. Okay, he's not so much like Binns, but he is equally dull nevertheless. Biology is stupid, but I can't say much on the subject since I've always been averse to science, and I don't want to be tooooo biased.
Math class is terrible. I'm generally fairly good at math. That was why my (fabulous) math teacher last year assigned me to Integrated 3 Honors last year even though my middle school had an inferior math educational system (AKA no AP programs). He thought I could do it. I thought I could do it. But my math teacher now is a CRAPPY TEACHER. Not as in she doesn't know anything... I'm sure she knows tons about maths and all. Now if she can just actually TEACH. All class long she gives us these assignment sheets that we're supposed to figure out "as a group", with NO explanation on how to do things at all. I understand if she's trying to let us explore the knowledge and all that junk by ourselves, but we're left with NOTHING. NO KNOWLEDGE. We're in the dark and there's no flashlight. Or at least I am. I don't know if the people from schools with good math educational systems understand this crap, but either way, she should make EVERYONE understand. Instead, she's off talking to some juniors/sophomores about complex math functions.
I did NOT get like half of the math homework I got today. I haven't been this in the dark about the math since... Ever. Not even when I went to a stinkin' prestigious private school in Hong Kong (and we all know that the math educational system in Asia is waaay harder.)
Secondly, I hate high school because I have no friends. I thought I would be able to make some new, awesome friends at a new, awesome high school, but nope. Because I am too new but not awesome enough. Everyone here was from the same middle school, so all the cliques have been established three years ago and everyone knows each other. There's no room for an outsider, at all, nary one as lame as me.
The only people I hang out with are like a couple of girls from my old school. I pretend to like them waaaay better than they pretend to like me. It's so awful, going to school everyday knowing that I'll suck at math & all of that and I'll have to endure these snide comments from my "friends" because I don't want to be completely alone. It's been a week and I haven't made any friends at all. Nobody seems to like me.
I just DON'T want to go anymore.