Fuck my life.
So tonight i had auditions for my play.
one person showed up.
fuck my life.
i really tried to do something with my last weeks here at purchase. to not feel like i haven't accomplished anything.
it may be petty, but I'm jealous of my friends. Each and everyone of my friends have musical talent and they perform all the time. i just wanted to do something that i could be proud of and show to others.
even when i act in plays, no one ever shows up.
its 5 weeks to go and i feel even more distant than i have ever and i thought things were looking up. i had a good weekend and i finished the play (that i'm really really proud of) and yet i feel like everything kinda went to crap tonight.
IDK, maybe i'm just over reacting, i still am having auditions tomorrow, maybe that will go better, but who knows?
fml.
one person showed up.
fuck my life.
i really tried to do something with my last weeks here at purchase. to not feel like i haven't accomplished anything.
it may be petty, but I'm jealous of my friends. Each and everyone of my friends have musical talent and they perform all the time. i just wanted to do something that i could be proud of and show to others.
even when i act in plays, no one ever shows up.
its 5 weeks to go and i feel even more distant than i have ever and i thought things were looking up. i had a good weekend and i finished the play (that i'm really really proud of) and yet i feel like everything kinda went to crap tonight.
IDK, maybe i'm just over reacting, i still am having auditions tomorrow, maybe that will go better, but who knows?
fml.