Keep this Under the Rose
Or not really... lol
Yesterday I woke up at around 7 am to go to tennis. Since our #1 singles was out, I played 1 singles. It was a tough match: in the beginning I was down 2-5 but I came back until we were tied 6-6. We had to do a tie-breaker (which is wicked weird) and I won! My opponent was so exhausted that I won the second set easily. Lyndsey did a great job in 2nd singles. She lost the 1st set, won the 2nd, and won the 3rd. I was really happy for her.
After the tennis match, I went back home and watered my veggies in the victory garden. I was so excited because they're coming up now as little green shoots! I took a shower and wrote some more of the drama story. It's now 19 pages long and I still have some jokes I wanted to add before it ended. I want to finish it this weekend so I can hand it out before the seniors leave. I went and saw the DaVinci Code at around 5:15 with Alida and Shannon and then went out to Panera breads with Shannon. I love Panera breads! They're so fancy and they make wicked good food... Then I went shopping at Kohl's with Shannon and I bought the black skirt I needed for the concert this wednesday. I went to bed at around 11:11 (after reading some of "Secret Life of Bees", of course).
Today is Sunday and I'm going to church (yippee!) and I'll be able to see Meg and Carly and Kyle, so it's all good. We're all supposed to get together to see the video of our play later this June, so I can't wait. Carly and Meg are joining the drama club next year! They are really looking forward to it and I've told them a bit about the people in drama. None of them are doing tennis however, but oh well, at least I'll see them during the drama season!
I've been feeling so weird these past few days. I dont know... I just keep waking up and feeling like something weird is going on in my life... almost as if I can't control my life or that my life is but a dream. It's the most bizarre feeling and I can't get it to go away. Same with my anger. I'm not angry at anyone anymore, but I still feel angry and frustrated. Also impatient. But impatient for what? I realized the whole reason I lost Friday's match was because I was so frustrated that I whacked the ball real hard and it went out. It seems that once I start feeling certain emotions, they just won't go away. I don't like this anger; it frightens me. I think I should read the bible more and hopefully it will go away...
I think what contributes to this weirdness is that I have bizarre dreams every night. The only thing is, I dont remember them when I wake up, all I remember was that it was a very weird dream. Actually, sometimes I do remember bits and pieces of it, like how last night's dream had everyone I knew in it along with Libano. I guess Libano contributed to the weirdness. I dont know... I just hope that this hate and feeling of weirdness and deja vu (yes, i've been feeling that a lot also... as if my whole life has happened before... maybe I dreamt something that resembles what is happening now? who knows...) goes away soon. Sigh.
I got to go to church, so I'll try to write in you later,
Phoenix
Yesterday I woke up at around 7 am to go to tennis. Since our #1 singles was out, I played 1 singles. It was a tough match: in the beginning I was down 2-5 but I came back until we were tied 6-6. We had to do a tie-breaker (which is wicked weird) and I won! My opponent was so exhausted that I won the second set easily. Lyndsey did a great job in 2nd singles. She lost the 1st set, won the 2nd, and won the 3rd. I was really happy for her.
After the tennis match, I went back home and watered my veggies in the victory garden. I was so excited because they're coming up now as little green shoots! I took a shower and wrote some more of the drama story. It's now 19 pages long and I still have some jokes I wanted to add before it ended. I want to finish it this weekend so I can hand it out before the seniors leave. I went and saw the DaVinci Code at around 5:15 with Alida and Shannon and then went out to Panera breads with Shannon. I love Panera breads! They're so fancy and they make wicked good food... Then I went shopping at Kohl's with Shannon and I bought the black skirt I needed for the concert this wednesday. I went to bed at around 11:11 (after reading some of "Secret Life of Bees", of course).
Today is Sunday and I'm going to church (yippee!) and I'll be able to see Meg and Carly and Kyle, so it's all good. We're all supposed to get together to see the video of our play later this June, so I can't wait. Carly and Meg are joining the drama club next year! They are really looking forward to it and I've told them a bit about the people in drama. None of them are doing tennis however, but oh well, at least I'll see them during the drama season!
I've been feeling so weird these past few days. I dont know... I just keep waking up and feeling like something weird is going on in my life... almost as if I can't control my life or that my life is but a dream. It's the most bizarre feeling and I can't get it to go away. Same with my anger. I'm not angry at anyone anymore, but I still feel angry and frustrated. Also impatient. But impatient for what? I realized the whole reason I lost Friday's match was because I was so frustrated that I whacked the ball real hard and it went out. It seems that once I start feeling certain emotions, they just won't go away. I don't like this anger; it frightens me. I think I should read the bible more and hopefully it will go away...
I think what contributes to this weirdness is that I have bizarre dreams every night. The only thing is, I dont remember them when I wake up, all I remember was that it was a very weird dream. Actually, sometimes I do remember bits and pieces of it, like how last night's dream had everyone I knew in it along with Libano. I guess Libano contributed to the weirdness. I dont know... I just hope that this hate and feeling of weirdness and deja vu (yes, i've been feeling that a lot also... as if my whole life has happened before... maybe I dreamt something that resembles what is happening now? who knows...) goes away soon. Sigh.
I got to go to church, so I'll try to write in you later,
Phoenix