stolen from kristen
" Well, there're two ways I can say this. And one would be: fuck you! And there're no two ways around it, because one would be untrue. Because I love everything about you. But I don't want to be around you. If you control my heart will you control my brain? If I give in to you, will it still feel the same? 'Cause I want nothing more than to be here with you. If you fulfill my dreams, will that fulfill you too? I need a second. I need a second to think. Now, the other way to play this would be mellow, light, and, cool. Poetry and meditation. Higher ground and higher truth. Because I love everything about you. But I use everything to doubt you. If you control my heart will you control my brain? If I give in to you, will it still feel the same? 'Cause I want nothing more that to be here with you. If you fulfill my dreams, will that fulfill you too? I need a second. I need a second to think. I found the spot where truth echoes and know each beauty mark by heart. But I just can't keep her still enough to render perfect art. 'Cause the truth is ever changing and although she loves my touch, I've had my way, but I when I pray, she kisses back too much. And it's hard to feel real gangster when you're always getting kissed. But you jump at every pucker, 'cause your fear of getting dissed. I try not to fight the parts of me that want to kiss her back. Egos should be illegal. Mine just don't know how to act. He tells me I don't need her. I should walk this path alone. She's make believe. She's up my sleeve. I'd do better with a clone. But could it be? It seems to me that she's my other half. My inner-tarzan monkey girl, raised mainly by giraffes. And besides she makes me laugh. 'Cause deep down I think she's stupid. But deeper down, I'm just a clown starting bar room brawls with cupid, like, "Fuck that naked baby angel, yo! And gimme 2 more buttery nipples". And God just re-invents herself as ice-cubes in my ripple. "
i heart this song so much
nothing much has been going on with me
had our last concert with school
the auditorium got half way full
no one came to see heather or me
but that's ok
other than that it was a good concert
i've been working a lot
yesterday, today, tomorrow and saturday
nothing else has been going on really
just hanging out with michael
oh and i hung out with jen delnero, stephen, jess keen, and michael on monday i think it was
that was pretty fun
i'm glad i can hang out with all of them
so that's about it
i've been trying to finish that damn survey but every time i start it something happens, or someone needs me to do something, or someone need the computer
i'm half tempted to start it again but i'm sure if i do michael will show up and then i won't be able to finish it anyway
i miss drum corps a lot
people are trying to get me to march senior corps
but it won't be the same
i want to teach so bad
but i don't know if i could afford teaching for free
but you know what, if someone offered me a marching tech position and it had no money attached, i would still probably take it
i definitely feel like i'm ready to teach
oh i miss it so
anyway
i'm out
i think i'm going out with kristen in a little bit
not sure though
anyway
you can all call me
the only thing i'm doing for a while is working so i'm available to hang out much more
and any ECJers, i would love to come visit for like a couple days or a week or something, so we should set something up before you all leave on tour!
so call me or write to me or whichever
later
i heart this song so much
nothing much has been going on with me
had our last concert with school
the auditorium got half way full
no one came to see heather or me
but that's ok
other than that it was a good concert
i've been working a lot
yesterday, today, tomorrow and saturday
nothing else has been going on really
just hanging out with michael
oh and i hung out with jen delnero, stephen, jess keen, and michael on monday i think it was
that was pretty fun
i'm glad i can hang out with all of them
so that's about it
i've been trying to finish that damn survey but every time i start it something happens, or someone needs me to do something, or someone need the computer
i'm half tempted to start it again but i'm sure if i do michael will show up and then i won't be able to finish it anyway
i miss drum corps a lot
people are trying to get me to march senior corps
but it won't be the same
i want to teach so bad
but i don't know if i could afford teaching for free
but you know what, if someone offered me a marching tech position and it had no money attached, i would still probably take it
i definitely feel like i'm ready to teach
oh i miss it so
anyway
i'm out
i think i'm going out with kristen in a little bit
not sure though
anyway
you can all call me
the only thing i'm doing for a while is working so i'm available to hang out much more
and any ECJers, i would love to come visit for like a couple days or a week or something, so we should set something up before you all leave on tour!
so call me or write to me or whichever
later