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"there comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it, and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard you forget the bad, and focus solely on the good. after all, life is too short to be anything but happy."
sometimes we have to make choices. i think that....when you make a choice, and it's the right choice, you should feel better and relieved after making that choice.
i wish i could say that that's how i feel right now. But, I've been crying on and off all day today, feeling miserable. Kinda like I felt a year ago. I suppose I'm just a stupid girl that tries things assuming they might make things better, but in fact.....things couldn't be more worse.
I've decided that I need to start doing activities that make me happy, even if my parents disapprove of them. I'm doing winterguard, something my parents won't be happy with, but it's something that makes me happy. I'm also trying out for Boston Crusaders with Marg and Ulyssa. They're old guard friends from high school. Ulyssa told me about a month ago that she wanted me to march with her. She marched with them last year. She's pretty sure I'll make it. I need to make a video and send it to the office in Boston by January 1st. I don't know how to make videos, but I sure as hell will find out how to do it. That's $2000....and something my parents will be very....very opposed to. We'll see though. I'm going to do what makes me happy, and they have to deal with it. It's my money. I'll do what I want with it.
::sigh:: i almost wish I was going back to disney world next semester, but that's just a dream. I think, several things are dreams. I finally had a dream last night. I tried and tried to get something I wanted so....soooo badly. It took several tries, and I woke up before finding out if I got what I wanted. Does that mean anything? Hm....I guess I'll find out eventually.
sometimes we have to make choices. i think that....when you make a choice, and it's the right choice, you should feel better and relieved after making that choice.
i wish i could say that that's how i feel right now. But, I've been crying on and off all day today, feeling miserable. Kinda like I felt a year ago. I suppose I'm just a stupid girl that tries things assuming they might make things better, but in fact.....things couldn't be more worse.
I've decided that I need to start doing activities that make me happy, even if my parents disapprove of them. I'm doing winterguard, something my parents won't be happy with, but it's something that makes me happy. I'm also trying out for Boston Crusaders with Marg and Ulyssa. They're old guard friends from high school. Ulyssa told me about a month ago that she wanted me to march with her. She marched with them last year. She's pretty sure I'll make it. I need to make a video and send it to the office in Boston by January 1st. I don't know how to make videos, but I sure as hell will find out how to do it. That's $2000....and something my parents will be very....very opposed to. We'll see though. I'm going to do what makes me happy, and they have to deal with it. It's my money. I'll do what I want with it.
::sigh:: i almost wish I was going back to disney world next semester, but that's just a dream. I think, several things are dreams. I finally had a dream last night. I tried and tried to get something I wanted so....soooo badly. It took several tries, and I woke up before finding out if I got what I wanted. Does that mean anything? Hm....I guess I'll find out eventually.