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[fatelbows]

so ive had a lj for 5 years now and i just read allmy post over.it was fun seeing my life over again. there were some gaps and thatr makes me want to bring this back cuz its a possitive thing in my life. theres not many positive things right now. my best friends since i was in high school is in mexico. i hear his bar is doing good but i also hear he want to come back to the us and chill. i hope he does and i hope he comes back a g again(without his chick) cuz when we goto thebar/clubs/anywhere we get a grip of girls quick. i dont know what it is i think its just the combanation of the two of us together that drivesgirls crazy. on another note rifle is locked up. hes looking at some serious jail time. they wont even OR him. so hes been in jail for about ten days they still havent brought his case to the judge. FREE RYFLE. hopefully hell sober up. that fools looking cracked back if you know what i mean. ive been steadily painting again and its been fun. i always enjoy people calling me saying theyseen someshit of mine whether it beon the freeway or tv or whatever. after a year i am offically in BM now. they had a meeting on it. god i wish i could get out of here. theres not enough spacein this house for me. its gonna be sadto leavemydog with my mom but i know if i move its gonna be the best thing for him. its like having a child. im the only onee he looks up to.it kinda makes me feel special. it also makes merelizes im not ready to hace kids and makes me wonder if i ever want kids. i think i want a daighter tho. one da.just so i can scare her boyfriends before date. dads alway seemed to like to do that to me. on another note i think im overone night stands pimping girls for things and fasle relationships. i just want to settle downin a small cozzie space with someone i care about and just chill watching snow fall wrapped in a blanket. the season is coming soon. maybe ill move tothe snow. i really want to goto new york. everyone says the vibe out there is amazing. if not there i want to stay with my grandmother in turkey. shes going back soon. she has a couple houses out there that she doesnt even use so i know theres plenty of room for me. and myfamily are all aristocrats so its not like i cant get a job or anything. i alwayslovedthegirls from europe too. theres something about them that makes the carefree and worryless. thats a important quality i need in a partner right now. i also need a job. its impossible to find a good one right now.photography is being slow. i havent had a paying shoot in twomonths. i was thinking since i have more equipment than moere people could shit on that i would start entering contest. if only i could date a makeup girl.models are chill but after meeting so many my age i wouldnt want to date one but i would rather marry one after her carrer cuz shell stillbe bangin and she have a better head on her sholder. i think im gonna ride DTLA tomorrow. im gonna get my pegs back on. carlos said i could crash at his pad so the next day ima go look for a job in down town. speacking of downtown i heard my nigga craft is locked up.i didnt hear why but it could be a huge number of reasons. so FREE MY NIGGA CRAFT!

ill end on that note

ps im bringin this shit back