A Day of Loss

[fategirl]

A few days ago, my life, as well as Jason's changed forever. I was going to have a baby. At first it was a surprise and emotions were high, then later, we were both happy and excited to have a baby. I was so excited to have a baby with the man that I Love. I saw how much Jason was looking foward to be a dad. He would have made, and will make a great fantastic father someday. Today, I Lost our little baby. I felt like a part of me was slowly dying. Something that was created unexpectedly out of love, Gone......To make things worse, I lost him/her on the day my mother died. The doctor said there is nothing I can do but let it come out of me. So all day today, and probably tommorow I feel my unborn child come out of me. It is a horrible experience that I wish no one ever feels. Jason has been nothing but supportive and wonderful. I know he hurts inside, but I see that he is trying to be positive on the outside, to keep me from going into depression. I am so lucky and blessed to have a man like him in my life. We have both been through so much together, and I believe, that this will only make us stronger. So Jason my love,
Thank you for being that Man that you have been with me. Thank you for loving me in every way a man could ever love a woman. Thank you for standing by my side through thick and thin. I Love you My Angel. I know that when we get married, God will bless us with another baby. I Love you so much, More than you could ever know.
To all my friends, who have been supportive, Thank you so much for everything. If it wasn't for you all either I don't know how I would get through this. I love all of you all very much and appreciate you all with all my heart and soul.

To my unborn child,
Know that I would have loved you with everything I have
and that your Daddy would have loved you and been the best Daddy in the world.
Your sister Maya would have been so lucky and blessed and happy to have you.
May God keep you in Heaven.

Love,
Mommy