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I don't know why I've felt so depressed the last few days. I've felt so lonely... and it doesn't make any sense. Things have been so much better the last few weeks. I've made better friendships with my friends, I've been lest stressed, I raised all my grades, and my mom and my step dad finally stopped argueing all the time. But still I feel so lonely, and I hate the feeling. And it's not because I don't have a boyfriend anymore. When I do, I'm even more lonely. Lonely because they haven't cared enough to call me, or ask how I'm feeling, or comforted me when I was upset. No, thats not the reason. I hate when I can't figure things out, especially when it has to do with emotion. I'm always so emotionally aware of my feelings and others. I can always figure out what someone is feeling, just by looking at them or having a small conversation with them. I guess it's my gift, everyone has one. Thats why I think I want to be a psychiatrist, or something related to therapy and helping people with their problems. Idn I have to decide all the classes I want to take next year. I think I've decided on Alebra 2, Spanish 2, regular English, honors biology, PE 2(hopefully only 1 semester if I take summer PE), and possibly AP euro I can't decide if I want to yet. I know it's going to be 4 to 5 hours of hw per night from just that class alone, plus all my other hw from other classes. But history is my favorite subject, so I feel like I'll be missing out if I don't take it. Matt is taking it and he says it's a great class. I guess I can always transfer out of it if it's way to difficult. Anyway, shit I gotta finish studying for my spanish test...
G'night everyone. :-)
G'night everyone. :-)