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I don't ever remember the weeks going by this quickly or this peacefully. Amidst all of the chaos, I seem to have found a very pleasant, very uneventful, very calm routine.
It might be the easy classes, it might be the fact that I'm not worrying about bad things happening anymore (because I think I've used up pretty much all of my bad luck), it might be the fact that I'm reading more, or maybe it's the fact that I'm just accepting things as they come.
I'm not worried about getting into Ohio State anymore, because I'm already in. Not that I should have worried from the get go. It's not as if it's Cornell or Columbia. If I don't get the scholarship, I'm okay. Because I know I'll be okay.
My living situation for next year is pretty much set, and it's perfect, and it's inexpensive.
I don't have a lot of obligations right now, which is pretty nice.
I don't know. I guess I kind of feel content. Like something just clicked and said, "Look, you. Things are kind of messed up. Just float for a while."
Yet I can't help but feel as if this is going to end up being some extended period of calm before a storm. Maybe the longest period of calm I've ever had. Maybe the biggest storm. Let's hope I'm wrong.
It might be the easy classes, it might be the fact that I'm not worrying about bad things happening anymore (because I think I've used up pretty much all of my bad luck), it might be the fact that I'm reading more, or maybe it's the fact that I'm just accepting things as they come.
I'm not worried about getting into Ohio State anymore, because I'm already in. Not that I should have worried from the get go. It's not as if it's Cornell or Columbia. If I don't get the scholarship, I'm okay. Because I know I'll be okay.
My living situation for next year is pretty much set, and it's perfect, and it's inexpensive.
I don't have a lot of obligations right now, which is pretty nice.
I don't know. I guess I kind of feel content. Like something just clicked and said, "Look, you. Things are kind of messed up. Just float for a while."
Yet I can't help but feel as if this is going to end up being some extended period of calm before a storm. Maybe the longest period of calm I've ever had. Maybe the biggest storm. Let's hope I'm wrong.