sleepless...

[fate_of_one]

for about 12 nights now, i haven't had my normal 7-8 hours of really good, deep sleep...i've been averaging about 4-5 hours of pretty shit poor sleep instead...mentally, i'm alot better about my ongoing problem, but i guess deep down inside, my body knows better and insists on waking me up at least once a night from a very intense bad dream (instead of the nightmares i was having when this started), thus making me extremely tired when i wake up...sleeping problems really are a big problem, and all i can do is ride this out, since trying melatonin really didn't help me and so, i'm reluctant to try anything else...the problem isn't getting to sleep, which now takes about twice as long as before...the problem is staying asleep and waking feeling like i'm recharged...it's amazing that i've been getting any work done in my practice room at USC but i think i have coffee to thank for that...

19 days till NYC trip and counting...and i might go to tahoe this friday with my dad...

must
get
real
sleep.

i'm about 70% done learning the music for my recital (went from 20% to 70% in 5 days, not bad...) hoping to have all the notes by next week and start polishing before i go on my trip...

hope you're all much better than i am...