Thoughts of a Whovian nature...
A big part of why I got so wrapped up in supernatural was Dean and then Castiel's angst, I didn't expect to find a level of angst that could be deeper, but Eleven's is going beyond it for me. Ironically it was people on my flist talking about Tennant and Ten that got me interested in watching Doctor Who again, which I hadn't seen since I was very young, but Matt Smith and his Eleven have taken hold of my heart in a way that was unexpected but so exciting and emotional.
I still haven't watched much of Ten's series, I've been meaning to but just haven't had the time, so Eleven just IS the Doctor for me. I can't believe the depths of emotion he drags from me. I haven't cried this much in I don't know how long. And the sadness just keeps building, but it is such a delicious sorrow that I just want more and more.
I really didn't expect it, as the odd pictures and what not I had seen of Matt before I started watching, he just looked so young and frivolous. I now find him utterly adorable and sexy. He just brings out every facet of the character for me. He has that wonder and joyous madness about him, but behind it all is such depth of sorrow that Matt portrays beyond brilliantly, and Moffatt understands and writes so well.
Matt and Moffatt sucked me in with season 5, where we got such beautiful hints of his inner demons and sadness, but it has gone beyond that this season. They have really explored it so wonderfully, that darker side of his personality, the guilt, pain and self loathing. I can't help but adore the Doctor, he is so full of darkness, but has done so much good, even if he can't always see it, and as this season has gone on, seems to be seeing it less and less, but it is there none the less.
I adore the darkness of this season. I love Eleven's excitable madness too, it makes his sorrow so much more palatable and heartbreaking, but the sheer age, broken self loathing and the pain he carries for those he loves, has quickly seen him become possibly my favourite character of any show I have watched.
I adore the friendship and love between the Doctor and Amy. It is so heartbreaking in its possibilities and never will be's. I find it entirely maddening that they teased us with this delicious bond only to bring Rory in after a few episodes. I didn't want to like him, but couldn't help but love him, especially after the last two episodes of series 5 and now series 6. I love his dedication to Amy and somewhat complicated friendship with the Doctor. And then there is River, I adore her love for the Doctor and flirty nature, and the Doctor's, loyalty, I guess you could call it to her, even before he knew who she was, and more so after her did.
I could have clung to Eleven/Amy, and truth be told it will always outweigh the other relationships for me, but the writers have created such wonderfully romantic bonds between the characters that it is hard not to love all of them. I can get caught up in the emotion and heartache of River/Doctor in Let's Kill Hitler, and Rory/Amy in The Girl Who Waited, but ultimately, I am so infatuated with the Doctor that it doesn't matter; it is everyone's relationship with him, and his with them, that plays with my emotions. I simple adore the complicated nature of the Doctor's relationships with those around him.
There is so much between him and Amy, that she was left waiting for him, and came out of it both broken and stronger. That he has tried to make up for that in many ways. I love that in season 5, he saw that his presence in her life, and taking her away on adventures, had gotten in the way of what she was perhaps always meant to have, a relationship with a man who loved her, and more importantly, could grow old with her. That he went out of his way to bring Rory along with them, and that after Rory was written out of existence, he held onto the pain and memories, not to mention the wedding ring, was simply heartbreaking. He has had such an attachment to Amy from the very beginning, and true there may have been that element of wanting to be adored, but it is more than that, so very much more. I could ramble for ages on my love of their relationship and still not fully understand it.
I adore the broken, out of order story of River and her relationship with the Doctor, I love the mystery of it, and the sadness, the romantic in me couldn't help but enjoy it, even as I fought against it as it was Amy/Eleven that was firmly snuggled in my heart. Both River and the Doctor are such incredible flirts!
I love the complications that Rory's Roman story brought. They developed his story so well with both that and his growth in series 6. I love the relationship between the Doctor and Rory. It is so very complicated. I think there is some level of understanding after all those years of Rory watching over Amy, as they both carry all those years, yet Rory seems to have trouble reconciling that darker side of the Doctor. I love that Rory seems to both accept and hate the love between Amy and the Doctor. It broke my heart when Rory lost his faith in the Doctor in the last two episodes; he seemed to just reach his breaking point, and there is that element of hate in Rory's feeling towards the Doctor now, though the friendship is still there.
I have no idea how Amy and Rory will be involved in the show going forward, though I can only hoped they will be back in the TARDIS with the Doctor, and I don't know what will happen when we see River again, but I am dying to see what Moffatt has in store for us, what new heartbreak he has for us.
So yeah, I love the angst, it inspires and breaks me in such delicious ways that I hope we get it for a few more seasons, with plenty more of Matt's adorable wonder and eccentricities thrown in for good measure.
So yeah, 2011 sees the emergence of another obsession, ironically enough with Eleven...Its all Matt's fault, honestly, he's such a flirt.
Gifs and pics nabbed for the webs here and there...