Why is it i always get shat on
Killing....the only thing that is on my mind. Im going to fucking kill david paseka, im going to fucking kill my dad..or "dad" more or less. On Jan 18 i have to go to court for beating the fucking shit out of david paseka cuz he is a little pussy, i swear to god if he comes near me again i will take my knife and kill him with it. on a lighter note..im not having an xmas this year, my father is trying to tell me that im going to jail, and i wanted to get my girlfriend flowers and get them delivered to her house, but no my dad had to tell me it was a waste of my time. FUCK YOU. Jeanne means more to me now, then just about anything has in my life. She seems to always make me happy (cept when she is bitchy) i love you jeanne. Its only been a little over a week, but i swear to god i love her. nothing will come between us. I will be here, alone with myself on christmas. I will sit here and think about all the presents i could get, and want. I will get none of them. Its either i lie to myself and tell my dad im sorry and see him for xmas and get my presents. Or stick with my gut feelings and say fuck you. Im selfish i want the presents, but im not fuckin about to say sorry. One day before my dad dies, i hope he realizes how shitty of a father he is. I want to kill myself most of all. Not literally cuz suicide is retarted. but i wish the hurting would stop. I wish the crying would stop, i just wish the world would stop so i could concentrate for once. I have so many thoughts going through my head, no one to turn to. I dont want to burden my friends with my problems...i dont have parents to talk to. I have myself. Myself is usually what i have for motivation for everything i do. Its all by myself and for myself. I just wish someone would come get me from this world and make it better. Harry Potter shit....