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Goodbye 2005 hello new year
The new year
Its about getting over things that happined in the year past and actually getting over it. It's about making wiser decisions and being a stronger person. It's about the last two weeks and finally being completly ok and positive about whats happening 95% of the time. Its about that 95% slowly turning into 96 then 97 with nights like this until I will have no doubt in my mind. One thing I wish everyone knew no matter how you think something will turn out you can never count on anything 100% beucase there is always that small chance that the thing you though most unlikly to happen will actually happen, and thats what makes life worth living. 2005 has definetly been my year of growth in many many ways, I think it has been my step twords adulthood. Not just with the turning of age but emotionally and mentally. Turning 18 dosn't mean shit about being an adult or being mature its how you actually act and handle yourself. I know people that are 40 and I really wouldnt consider them adults at all.
I wont hint around stuff this last 6 months has been the biggest struggle for me, and I know I will deal with many more to come but it feels good to finally realize the thing I didn't want to happen the most will happen and is happening and its for the best. I give my all at everything but sometimes if other people wont then you can make it work. There is a point where you have to stop giving and trying so hard. I know someone will come along that I will give my all to and they will actually give theirs back.
For 2006 I predict at least one other long relationship, hopefully one that really works out. Going away to college will happen at least for a year to Western. I think it wont be as stressful a year because I wont let it be. Many trips to visit my Jakey in TC will happen and hopefully a road trip to California. I predict an amazing year.
I will remember this one forever and never look back at anything with any kind of regret, just made me more expierenced in many ways.
Goodnight <3
The new year
Its about getting over things that happined in the year past and actually getting over it. It's about making wiser decisions and being a stronger person. It's about the last two weeks and finally being completly ok and positive about whats happening 95% of the time. Its about that 95% slowly turning into 96 then 97 with nights like this until I will have no doubt in my mind. One thing I wish everyone knew no matter how you think something will turn out you can never count on anything 100% beucase there is always that small chance that the thing you though most unlikly to happen will actually happen, and thats what makes life worth living. 2005 has definetly been my year of growth in many many ways, I think it has been my step twords adulthood. Not just with the turning of age but emotionally and mentally. Turning 18 dosn't mean shit about being an adult or being mature its how you actually act and handle yourself. I know people that are 40 and I really wouldnt consider them adults at all.
I wont hint around stuff this last 6 months has been the biggest struggle for me, and I know I will deal with many more to come but it feels good to finally realize the thing I didn't want to happen the most will happen and is happening and its for the best. I give my all at everything but sometimes if other people wont then you can make it work. There is a point where you have to stop giving and trying so hard. I know someone will come along that I will give my all to and they will actually give theirs back.
For 2006 I predict at least one other long relationship, hopefully one that really works out. Going away to college will happen at least for a year to Western. I think it wont be as stressful a year because I wont let it be. Many trips to visit my Jakey in TC will happen and hopefully a road trip to California. I predict an amazing year.
I will remember this one forever and never look back at anything with any kind of regret, just made me more expierenced in many ways.
Goodnight <3