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this is what I really resolve to do:
I really resolve to be more open in this journal, and to people in general, instead of saying "I don't know" to accusational or difficult questions, giving an answer instead. to help be more open in the journal, I'm going to type up minimum of one entry every other week at the minimum from my written journal that I've started randomly writing in, and I will post it here, completely unedited. in fact, probably scanned. because what I've really learned is I need to speak my mind, otherwise I retain things for far too long and become bitter and miserable. so let me start by doing this:
-I go to barnes and noble because the people are nice to me there, and I'd rather be building my friendships with my co-workers right now than being at home sitting in front of the computer.
-I drink coffee because it makes me feel good and I get headaches if I don't drink it. I'm addicted. I know. You don't need to bring it up all the time. I'm trying to cut down. I've only had one cup since saturday night.
-One thing I've always had problems with is communication, especially bringing up topics that need to be discussed. I have problems conveying things sometimes as well. My tone isn't always what I want it to be, but I'm working on my writing skills, because frankly they're terrible. most of the time I'm overly blunt and don't use much literary language.
-I've made alot of mistakes this year (not even mentioning my whole life), and I'm really sorry to all of those I've offended. I really wish there was a time machine in existence right now.
-I don't know why I isolate myself. I hate being alone.
if you have any questions or want to say something, let me know.
I really resolve to be more open in this journal, and to people in general, instead of saying "I don't know" to accusational or difficult questions, giving an answer instead. to help be more open in the journal, I'm going to type up minimum of one entry every other week at the minimum from my written journal that I've started randomly writing in, and I will post it here, completely unedited. in fact, probably scanned. because what I've really learned is I need to speak my mind, otherwise I retain things for far too long and become bitter and miserable. so let me start by doing this:
-I go to barnes and noble because the people are nice to me there, and I'd rather be building my friendships with my co-workers right now than being at home sitting in front of the computer.
-I drink coffee because it makes me feel good and I get headaches if I don't drink it. I'm addicted. I know. You don't need to bring it up all the time. I'm trying to cut down. I've only had one cup since saturday night.
-One thing I've always had problems with is communication, especially bringing up topics that need to be discussed. I have problems conveying things sometimes as well. My tone isn't always what I want it to be, but I'm working on my writing skills, because frankly they're terrible. most of the time I'm overly blunt and don't use much literary language.
-I've made alot of mistakes this year (not even mentioning my whole life), and I'm really sorry to all of those I've offended. I really wish there was a time machine in existence right now.
-I don't know why I isolate myself. I hate being alone.
if you have any questions or want to say something, let me know.