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today was my day to focus, to try to understand things better in the world around me, and why things have happened, and what I can do to atone myself and to fix everything somehow. So, I decided that, in order to help me understand, and to let me think clearly, I should fast. I refrained from eating during the daylight, and I kept praying. I told myself that no matter what, my thoughts would not go to anything that would make me sad or cry, and though it was almost impossible, I did. And I've thought all day. I don't know if I came with any solutions for what I can do, but I feel alot purer now. Almost as though I've gone on my own spiritual journey.
I was thinking before that perhaps I should go to a psychologist. But I'm not sure anymore about that. I'll just wait and see how things develop from here.
I was thinking before that perhaps I should go to a psychologist. But I'm not sure anymore about that. I'll just wait and see how things develop from here.