reflections on the past year, by reflect i mean rant
ill start this off by saying just one thing. i think giving a gift on christmas just so the person cant say they didnt get a gift is one of the most selfish and horrendous things that this world practices. in my opinion, christmas is pointless if ur not happy. if tons of shit that ull use once and never look at again make u happy then i pity u but wont comment on the quality of ur selfish materialistic life. which leads me to something else. most chicks these days judge their boyfriends love on how much money they spend on their christmas gifts. this is another sad example of how the world has become so full of shit. thinking about it now though, i can somewhat understand y people are like this. perhaps theyre thinking more advanced than us(of course with the current state of the world i have to laugh at myself), but just maybe they realize that life is pointless. is this all that life really has to offer? from what i can tell life is just the same bullshit over and over again. its an endless cycle of "entertainment". ive now come to realize that all that life is is distractions. we watch movies play games and do various other things just so we can pass the time until we die. when ur a child u complain about how crappy school is. when ur an adult u complain about how crappy work is. and what do u do inbetween? u distract urself with whatever u can until u have to go back and do the same thing the next day. in fact amassing hoardes of stuff is basically the american dream. as long as u have more and better things than ur neighbors ur happy. as long as ur girlfriend/wife is hotter than all of ur friends girlfriends/wives ur happy. theres another sack of shit. love. love isnt what everyone says it is. its not this wonderful thing where one person and another meet and become happy and spend the rest of their lives together. not anymore. now it starts off as lust. usually man that chick over there is really hot. u then "hook up", date for a while, introduce her to ur parents all the while trying to fuck her as soon as possible because its the "cool" thing to do and finallyget married. personality conflicts occur because uve known eachother for 5 months a kid is born and finally there comes the divorce which scars the child for the rest of his life. humanity is a pile of shit. well ive said a bunch of things i wasnt even planning on saying nor that make too much sense but hey i dont understand how my mind works it just does and i couldnt ask for more. anyways the past year had its ups and downs as will every year until i die. sorry to have wasted ur time with inane babble. o yes one last thing. i hate new years. y do u ask? because seeing how its my mothers birthday tomorrow i cant do anything tonight. i actually did something last year. what did that get me? my entire family except for my mother, a point that not one person noticed, yelling at me and calling me an inconsiderate jackass for a month. i just want school to come back... it keeps my mind off of this shit. instead of worrying about getting yelled at for being "inconsiderate" i get yelled at for grades which i can live with to an extent. peace out the peoples. i hope ur lives are going better than mine, although they dont seem to be from what i can tell.